Memories ‹3 ;;

♥ 28 September, 2008

it's weird...

how i never seem to learn my lesson the previous time...

damn.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

3:05 pm

♥ 22 September, 2008

damn sad.

i dont know if wat i did was right.

i dont know if my words were too harsh.

i dont know wat will the outcome be...

i just hope things could be better...

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

10:49 pm

♥ 18 September, 2008

arrgh. i hate it. simply hate it when things just goes the wrong way... when everything just turn out so wrong... when i feel so unappreciated... i dont know why, i feel just like an "option", just one of the many choices... but never the priority... i dont know. i cant read minds. i'm looking at things form my point of view, based on wat i feel. correct me if i'm wrong... i hoped i'm just being overly sensitive.

i hate to have my feelings ignore, having "nobody ask you to feel that way" being shoot at me. seriously. i need someone to consider how i feel. to spare a thought on how i'm feeling... and not just take for granted on how i should feel. i need more care, i need more concern, i need to feel more importance. i need more love.. and i need alot more assurance. i'm being greedy perhaps, demanding even. but

i tried pretending everything is fine, tried to hide those feelings, tried to make myself feel better by not thinking abt those shit stuffs. i tried finding excuses. i tried to come up for logical explanations. but fuck. it's hard.

and i'm tired. of repeating the same old stuffs over again and nothing just seem to go in. i know there had been changes made, there have been improvements but just please be more thoughtful with the words..

afterall, words can be the most lethal weapon. that can spoil, or build any relationships.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

7:04 pm

♥ 13 September, 2008

& the tears flowed uncontrollably again...

sometimes i wonder,

would anybody even realise my departure, if i were to just die in an accident or whatsoever tmr... ha. i doubt so.

for i feel so insignificant. i dont even have a idea as to the position i hold, that level of importance to anybody, if any.

i'm just a passer-by perhaps.

只是生命中的过路客. . .

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

1:29 am

♥ 08 September, 2008

The sweetest love story.

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised.
They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. 'would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.
'Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby? He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'. While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched..
That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home. Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said:
'My dearest,Please forgive me, forgive my whole-life lie. This was the only lie I said to you - the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you.. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life.
If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again.'Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee?
It's sweet. She replied.

Love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but to understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but to hold on.

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'

Owells. be realistic.. i dont think there'll be any guy who's this sweet... ok. maybe there's those one in a million... and i've definitely not met any of them yet... :/ but then again.. ppl change... they can be sweet in the beginning.. but after some time.. things will definitely be different.

sighs. why do ppl seem to always change for the worse... sometimes.. without realising it themselves. :( it sucks! x.x

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

8:42 am

♥ 07 September, 2008

Sunday again. sighs. tmr have to go back work. sucks. :( weekends always seems to pass so damn fast... :/

time really seems to fly pass... been working full time for... 3mths+. heh. from the initial i-hate-it-so-much-that-i-can't-wait-to-quit-the-job to now... the i-still-can-bear-with-it. woah. that's really sort of improvement. heh. but somehow. office job really not meant for me. :/ i need communication with ppl, not facing the dead com for 8hrs a day! omg. okays. i'm complaining. like again! x.x sadness. can't work with GF... work will definitely be more fun with GF around. :( sighs. T.T i wonder how long i can tahan this job. someone at work has been getting on my nerves like every week. keep throwing me last min shits.. damn. =.=

it's damn pissing how things always seems to refuse to go my way.. the way i would like it to be... it's irritating how sometimes i try to make things right, but yet it turns out wrong.. and it ended with me getting blame? owells. sometimes. i feel.. my life's seriously rather aimless. i mean. i just live from day to day. i dont even have a clue as to wat i wan to achieve in the near future... i feel kind of lost actually... :/ there's a chinese saying that says... 人生我材必有用 (something like that), but wat abt me? 用在何处? :( seriously i dont know man. sometimes... i feel that perhaps my kind of thinking is too naive.. haa. grow up! :/

Gf's blog song is damn nice. 不够成熟 by BY2. damn nice. kept listening to it since noon. heh. lyrics' meaningful too. ~.~ heh. how come sad songs are mostly the nicest... :/

Heh. i need some K-sessions (after i recover my voice :( ). :D sing my hearts out... yay!

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

10:52 pm

♥ 06 September, 2008

oh. remembered something. haha.

Stanley has left MM. sadness. :( he's really.. the best manager ever. sighs. owells. leaving MM would be better for him i suppose. can't expect him to "bury" in there the whole of his life right. :/ hmm. now with the Japan-imports. there are more politics. like. damn. it used to be such fun environment. but now, you just have to read the scheming hidden meaning in their words. seriously f-up. no wonder nowadays the staff turnover so fast. bth. i missed the old MM. :( ohh, heard that they might open another branch soon.. i wonder who will be in charge... :/

and so... went for Stanley's farewell. Big boss specially flew in from Japan to bid him farewell.. heh. so many ex-MM staff went. ahhaha! and we camwhored!! Lol. but i dont have the pictures though.. it's in some others cameras. will see if i can get. heee. :D was having supper.. and they ordered many many beer (which i seriously dislike). and they forced everyone to tah like 1 mug at least. =.= eeeek! :/ but owells. all our expenses paid for. hahaha. no complains la. ;p

hmmm. probably gotta go back "play" this friday as well. sian-ness. :( weekends are always super busy! x.x

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

11:32 pm

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heh. alrights. it's the beginning of a new month! heh. it's gonna be an eventlyful Sep i guess. got so many things going on... which means.. there's gonna be a big hole in my pocket again. owells. wat's new?

hmm. haven really been updating.. kind of forgotten wat really happen the past week. Lol. and yes.. i'm getting more and more forgetful. :/

heh. anyways. i shall just begin with wat i did today. :/ met up with GF after work.. went amk. heh. bought some necessities. ;p spent more money!! :( had dinner at the big big S-11. hee. :D finally satisfied my craving for Mutabak! :D loves! it's seriously not bad la, at least it's crispym and not very oily. ^^ then after that went eyebrow threading. it's kind of horrible this time.. =.= the nice lady boss wasn't around... then the person who served me was this impatient and rather rude woman. now my brows seems uneven la! damn pissed. T.T heng i got fringe to cover up! :x ohohoh! and GF helped me collected the contact lens that i ordered since i-dunno-when. heh. will try it on tmr. hopefully it looks fine. :D

hmm. after that went to play pool. heh. many many ppl. and it kind of sucks, coz i don't play well... :/ ok. to be honest, i think i play badly la. x.x so spent abt 2.5 close to 3 hrs there.. and it's only 18 bucks, considered quite cheap for a weekend night i suppose? then cabbed home with GF. tired. x.x

sighs. i have yet to watch Wall-E!! sadness!! :( I NEED ENTERTAINMENT!!! :(

anyways. saw this on GF's bloggie. thought it's kind of meaningful.. so i decided to copy and paste!!! :x

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to "suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation."A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call.She answered, 'Public Utilities Board.'There was silence.She repeated, 'PUB.' There was still no answer.When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice,'Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is.'Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just 'hello' instead of 'PUB'.

NO POINTING FINGERS. A man asked his father-in-law, 'Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?'The father-in-law answered in a smile, 'Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you.'We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at.This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested 'I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one.'The SDU officer said, 'Your requirements, please.''Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest.'The officer listened carefully and replied, 'I understand you need television.'There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

NO OVERPOWERING. Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much.People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character.' It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

RIGHT SPEECH. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that'A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation.'Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, 'Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school.'On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, 'Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker.' She answered,'You should appreciate that you married me. Other wise, he will be the millionaire and not you.'Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

PERSONAL PERCEPTION. Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison.A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?'Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them.Later, an old man saw it and commented, 'The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?'Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman.'The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey.Then, they met a young man. He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you.'Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a nar row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river.You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

BE PATIENT. This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, 'Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck.' Then he asked, 'but when are my fingers going to grow back?' The father went home & committed suicide.Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

owells. i guess.. i will just have to "see open" abit more...

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

2:11 am