♥ 28 May, 2008
oh fk. is it happening again?
well. i dont know.
i seriously dislike taking initiatives...
i dislike things being routine-ed...
i dislike how i seem to be the one always initiating the calls... it makes me feel as if i'm an irritant...
i detest to be the one attempting to start a conversation on the msn... as if i'm forcing you to say something when you have nothing to say to me at all...
i hate to feel like i'm forcing you to even talk to me!!
but yet.. it's all wat i'm feeling... somehow... like now?
i guess i must be too demanding... haaa. wat am i? i am nothing...
it's like in a cycle.. things that used to happen in the past, with the other ppl.. seems to be happening again.. how much confidence do i have to deal with it? seriously i do not know. is it going to sink down as one of the memories? seriously i dont wan that... and i'm afraid.. yet sometimes.. i can't help but have these thoughts.. because of the signs that i'm getting..
thoughts like these.. make me feel like just withdrawing myself.. if it's meant to be part of a memory.. why not leave it as a good one then?
well.. i dont know.
things like this happened so many times in the past.. i'm really unsure now.. even the slightest difficulty makes me feel like giving up.. for fear of getting hurt even more in the later part.. if things were to get worse...
i dont know.. why i'm feeling this way now.. perhaps i'm just emo.. perhaps i'm just afraid.. perhaps.. nobody understands and bothers at all...
perhaps you'll be much happier if i just leave you alone... ?
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
10:43 pm
♥ 26 May, 2008
Ok.. let's see wat i did over the weekends. hmm. i would say it's quite a fufilling i would say.. heh.. watched "Made of honour"(i cant rmb when exactly but i'll just include in this post anyhows :x) Hmm. quite like the show. NICE! :D and i thought the female lead was preeeetttyyy~ :D well.. in my opinion la. :)
Hmm.. went out in the noon with LTMTT.. we slacked and fooled around.. while waiting for Boon and gf and some supposedly i-dunno-whos.. well. it was planned that we will be going some ktv pub in boat quay.. then the i-dunno-whos pangseh-ed. like TMD. made me and LTMTT go from suntec.. to boat quay.. then back to bugis.. like damn irritating la. waste money waste time waste energy. TMD not-very-the-happy la. x.x
anyways.. met up with Boon and gf.. then went over to this Pub 33 amidst the many many steamboat "restaurants" at bugis area.. okays.. it was pretty alright.. and considered rather quiet for a saturday night.. :/ anyways. there was this grp of obviously very the <18>piitch from that grp of <18 y.o just came over and took one of the mic away.. i was like.. frowning with bubbled thoughts that says "wat the fuck" rising above me. okays. i was like pissed okays.. but after awhile. i felt alot better.. coz she was indeed making a foo0l of herself.. 1stly with her drunkard lian-ish shtified even-herself-also-apparently-dunno-wat-she-doing kind of behaviour.. and of course.. her disastrous singing. Heh. i definitely sing much better la!!
was really happy happy happy that other tables applauded for me as i finished singing.. not only once.. but like.. twice at least..? . :D damn HAPPY! ^^ voice was in good good condition that day. ^^v heee! seriously.. i love singing. ^^ and i like that sense of how ppl approve of my singing.. well.. not trying to show off or wat.. but it really feels good when ppl agrees that you are doing a great job at wat you yourself enjoy doing. :)
heh. rotted at work again today.. went for this pre-employment checkup.. ok.. it's suppose to be pre-employment.. but in this case.. it's not. :x anyways.. gotta go orchard for xray screening this saturday.. like.. before 12pm? damn sian can. x.x so early. :( somemore nobody pei me!!! T.T hur. x.x :/
okays.. guess i shall stop here.. mass blogged the events during the period which i seemed to have gone mia-ed from blog. heh. well.. i was just plan lazy okays.. :x will try to update la.. but then again.. it depends.. on whether anybody reads. :/
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
8:45 pm
♥ 24 May, 2008
Hmm. okays.. went for grad ceremony on 23rd May friday.. hee. it was quite ok actually.. seeing all my classmates whom i've not seen for abt.. 3mths? HAA. well. many of which are working already.. makes me feel like.. i really grow up.. or rather we. :/
owells. reached sch at 8.45 with mama.. like. damn early can. x.x anyways.. initially wanted to have breakfast with mama 1st.. but bus was slow.. so end up din have time.. so went to report for the ceremony instead.. while mama went to eat alone. heh. while we were preparing for our 10secs on-stage stint(basically walk over to the G-O-H, shake his hand, take pictures, walk down the stage).. mum called.. and said dad came. heh. :D while.. he initially couldn't make it due to work purpose. :x
but anyways.. had mass photo taking with MK0503-ians.. took pictures with dad and mum too. :D afterwhich.. went for this lunch reception prepared especially for the class of 2008 and parents! heh. there's like.. so much food la.. really is cannot finish that kind lor.. and the person kept refilling.. ~.~ i wonder wat's gonna happen to the leftovers. :/
heh. came home.. and took a nap. heh. i seriously love my bed okays... :x
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
10:22 am
♥ 21 May, 2008
Okays.. 1st day was.. owells. boring..? had this staff introduction.. that involves the whole office!! ermm. you might think it's perfectly normal to intro new staff to everybody in the office.. but.. i'm working in an MNC... whereby in this office... there's 100+++++ staff in total. imagine going around their tables.. having shake so many hands... trying my best to match names with their faces. oh gosh. it was.. very not-the-pleasant... it was.. awkward.. weird.. and.. strange la. x.x
anyways. after the horrendous experience at staff introduction by the frenly ppl from the cannot-be-offended HR dept.. i went for this software training.. well.. there are undergoing major software change.. whereby the sftware wil officially be used from 6june onwards.. thus.. for this period till then.. i have pretty much.. nothing to do. reason being.. they cant access new software yet.. and there's no point in them teaching me old software crap.. so.. ya. i'll be rotting in office from the 1st day of work.. all the way till 6june. :/ thank goodness working hrs is only from 8.30 till 5.30. :/
i wonder how long i can tahan in the office... :/
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
8:20 pm
♥ 20 May, 2008
Thanks GF and her bf (seng) for the oreo cheesecake.. which seng took the trouble to "beg" for it from starbucks.. as it was past their operation hrs.. Thanks! really appreciate it. :)) GF and her bf even delayed the timing after our movie finish.. so as to surprise me after 12am. heh. :D
anyways. watched "accuracy of death" with GF, her bf and LTMTT. the movie was not bad.. Takeshi Kaneshiro is cute (wat's new. :x).. hmm. overall.. i would say that the show's worth watching.. as there were some interesting moments.. and some parts of it was rather meaningful.. something like.. live with a goal, something you wan to achieve.. coz if you dont have anything you wan to achieve, what's the point of being alive then?
owells. kind of slacked at home on my birthday.. but i enjoyed.. because of you. :)
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
8:13 pm
♥ 19 May, 2008
Hmmm. finally.. the official last day of work at Ma Maison.... a place i call "My Home" for the past 3 years+. Owells. indeed i feel 不舍得... :/ anyways. took some pics.. for remembrance sake. Hah. :/ heh. but i believe i'll still be going back again.. for some meals and gatherings probably? :) I'm gonna miss Ma Maison's food. :s and of course not forgetting... the nice ppl. :(
Just some random pics...
Heh. anyways. went drinking again with Ma Maison ppl.. heh. it was sort of like a bday thingy for me.. and they got me presents too! THANKS! ‹3 loads! really didn't expect that much.. thought it was just some casual gathering. heh. :D Hur. i kena sabo-ed to drink many many times.. ~.~ and i sang my hearts out. and i managed to make it back home with a sober mind! HAHAHA. yay! :x
Oh. am meeting some of them this thursday. heh. for a mini gathering.. been long sicne the few of us sat down and dine together since they all quitted already too.. it's Ma Maison! HAHAa. :D
hmmm. it's grandpa's bday today.. tmr's mine.. heee. dearest AMB(ok. i shall refer to him as LTMTT from now on) took off especially for me. ^^ ‹3 thanks. :)) guess i'm probably gonna meet him after grandpa's birthday... and probably gonna stay out late like.. 3rd day in a roll?! my mum's gonna be mad. :x hahaa. but well.. i guess it's ok once in a while...? coz it's my bday okays! once a yr! and since i'm starting full time job soon.. i'll probably not have so much time of my own anymore. :( and that means lesser time to disturb LTMTT. :(
i miss ‹3:/
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
10:09 am
♥ 15 May, 2008
yay! got a job le. at toshiba. heh. good offering i would say. good luck to me!!! ^^
probably starting work soon though.. perhaps on the 20th. yay! looking forward. :))
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
8:11 pm
♥ 14 May, 2008
okays. went for the interview for Toshiba Electronics (sales and marketing administrator) ystd. they changed the timing to 9.45am.. which is like so early ~.~ and the distance was like so damn far... took me a whole 1hr 20min by bus.. and another 10min walking into that 鸟不生蛋 place. :/
anyways. the interview went pretty alright i guess. was asked to go for 2nd interview on Thursday.. which is tmr.. at an even earlier time.. 9.15am!! x.x tmd. bus confirm very crowded. T.T anyways. hopefully will get selected.. and hopefully the salary they offer is within my expectations. :/
hur. i seriously need a job like SOON! it's not even mid-month and i'm already broke.. like. damn broke! x.x i gotta beg from my mum already okay. :( x.x
hmmm. might be going Zoo this weekend. hahaha. shall see how. not confirm. coz like got so many things on. :/ saturday need to go back school to pay and collect the graduation gown. x.x tmd. damn ex. like $50... ok la. 1/2 of it is refundable. :/ owells.. it's been worn by idunnohowmanyotherppl. x.x
alrights. nothing much to update abt... BYEBYE!!
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
10:07 am
♥ 11 May, 2008
Alrights. finally got to hang out with GF ystd (saturday). heh. like really FINALLY! :/ hmm. well. met up with Amb and his fren first. heee. went to ma maison to eat... forgot to take picture though. :x yum yum. cheese fritters is ‹3 man. simply yummilicious. ^^
after lunch/dinner. went over to The Cathay to collect the tickets. lucky for us, we booked the tickets before hand, as it was already sold out by the time we reach Cathay. heh. then GF and her bf came afterwards as they got work. :/ watched "What Happens in Vegas" together.
the show was nice. :D worth a watch. heee. seriously alot of nice shows recently. ^^ after movie was only abt 9+. still early. so we all decided to go chill at some place. initially suggested Mr Bean's cafe (yes. the one with the very the unpleasant service).. but as we were approaching that area, we decided to just go into this ktv called Plasma KTV Pub. Hmmm. the owner(i think) doubt our age sia. Lol. heh. she was like saying we(GF and i, i suppose.) look machiam like 16year olds only. She checked our ICs anyways. ;p
Heh. ordered 3 jugs of beer for only $55. hur. seriously dont like tiger la. not nice. :( strongly prefers chivas or martell. owells. they are much much more expensive than beer la. x.x anyways. sang some songs and took some pictures. :)
That's GF and her bf. and the 3 jugs of beer. :/
That's Amb and me. :D
Heh. us again. ;p
Hmm. played some dice game too. oh. and dai dee too. :DOhh. and there was this Malay wedding at my void deck today. well. i'm fine with Malay weddings, the loud singings etc. but this. was really horrible. i mean. it's really one of the worse which i sort of curse and swear at. x.x
See the crowd..? well. i'm fine with it really. afterall. weddings.. the more ppl the merrier right. :/ wat i can't stand.. is wat's below...
You see... the motorbikes... machiam like a parade can!!
Just take a look man.. there are at least 30+ of them in total la. with some parking on the other side and the pathment as well.
and and and. i think.. they all just decided to come at the same time, like.. 30++ bikes.. vrooming into the carpark... and that's not all. they so PURPOSELY made those irritating loud vrooming engine sound.. all of them.. not only in the carpark.. but at the void deck as well. just imagine the noise pollution level. it's GODLY. (GOD DAMN NOISY!)
these ppl.. it's like can't they just spare a thought for the residence? like.. hello. of course i have no problems with ppl riding bikes to attend wedding.. parking the bikes at the void deck as long as it's in a orderly manner and not getting in the way, causing inconvenience.. but hey. please. nobody likes hearing the sound of the f-king noisy vrooms like so early in the afternoon. especially when the noise is caused purposely... with the intention of showing off or watsoever shit i dunno and i dont care either. it's like now. i finally can understand why there are some ppl who detest Malays so much. not trying to be racist here.. but. owells, it's a fact that these grp of them at the void deck deserves nothing more, nothing better than scoldings, cursing and swearing.
Heh. okays. i shall not rant anymore. getting lazy already. :/
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
2:50 pm
♥ 07 May, 2008
whee~ it's tuesday!! owells. wat's so exciting abt tuesday. :/
anyways. rotted my weekends away. stayed home on friday, saturday and sunday. omg. i can't believe it. x.x heh. went drinking at 酒潭淋 (ktv pub) with Ma maison people on monday night. abt 9 of us at least? :D heh. was thinking that there cant be alot of ppl on a monday night la.. afterall, it's not a weekend also. :/ but i was so wrong man! the whole place is like filled with so many ppl. so so so noisy la. :x lucky for us. we reserved the sofa seats in advance. heh.
we opened 3 bottles in total. and i think.. we finished all? heh. a few got drunk. and i was abit giddy already. Lol. i seldom drink la... and i think i drank the most and fastest this time round as compared to previous times. felt like my vision going merry-go-round. ~.~ we were there till abt 3+. Then cabbed home with jack. reached home. bathe and lied on my bed. but somehow. i just cant seem to slp. x.x it's already abt 4+, 5.. and i have to wake at 9 for work la. x.x
but luckily. i managed to get up on time.. and felt quite awake in fact. wasn't in that sleepy mode at all. :/ weird. but anyways. went to work. and got locked outside workplace. Yamamoto was late. owells. pardon him, as he drank alot. heh. he finally came to open the door at 11+ :/ rushed with the opening stuffs. etc.
and and and. i received a call from agency. got shortlisted for a job interview. heh. but it's kind of far though. at some alexandra technopark. :/ i seriously got no idea how to get there. it's far but.. somehow i think the job is not a bad catch. heh. ^^ hopefully i'll get the job. getting nervous abt the interview already. x.x
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
8:57 am
♥ 03 May, 2008
boredom.
i should've work instead.
damn.
now i'm stranded at home on a weekend afternoon.
tmd bored.
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
2:07 pm
♥ 02 May, 2008
yay!! i finally got my salary. though it was a miserable amount... sighs. it was much lesser than expected la. :( SAD. no thanks to the cpf contributions man. i really wonder why part time also need to put in cpf. x.x it's depriving me of my money... now. :/
anyways. got the cheques on... wednesday and went to cash out immediately. heh. as i'm sucha nice person. i helped my colleagues cash out too. 8 in total. :/
hee. public holiday(labour day) ystd. went out with amb. ^^ 1st. we head down to cine for the sushi buffet. BUT! to our horror! the queue was like damn long la. x.x but we queued anyways. coz i was having that craving for some sashimis and sushis. heh. been some time since i last had them. and so we waited for 1 whole hour before we got a table. x.x we were famished!... okays. i was famished. he was hungry. :/
well. we didn't eat alot.. did we..? (ps: they combine 5 plates of sashimi into 1 yellow plate)
and there he was, playing with his tongue stud. :/
then. we went bugis street! shopping time!! :D heh. walked around bugis street and this bag just caught my eye. ^^ but it's a casual slingbag though. wat i need more is a more formal kind of shoulder/hand bag. but nevertheless. i decided to buy it! coz i know if i don't. the possibility that i will regret is abt 85% .. and i will probably keep niam abt it. x.x Oh. saw some nice clothes too.. but someone don't allow me to see/touch/buy. :( he just keeps saying NO! x.x
That sling bag. :D
walked over to suntec around 7pm. bought tickets for "Ironman" and went around shopping... again. :x and this time.. another bag caught my eye. heh. :D a dark brown-like shoulder bag. :D it was the last piece though... seems to be in good condition still. so i got it too! ^^ after that went look look see see in Mini Toons. and got myself a new hp pouch. :x
That shoulder bag. ^^
My cute cute hp pouch!! :x
spent quite alot... broke once again. x.x hmmm.. next on the "things to get" list would be tops, bottoms and shoes. :/ probably have to wait till next month? :/
watched "Ironman". hmm. i would say the show's not bad. i enjoyed it. :)and i enjoyed my day.
i'm a happy girl! once again. :D
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
9:47 am
