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♥ 14 July, 2008

hmm. alrights. i'm really not happy right now. you may think i'm just emo-ing/moody/being unreasonable.. etc but no. i know it myself. like hello. it's not that time of the month 24/7 okays.

it's just.. sometimes.. i tend to think... i'll ponder.. i'll consider... then i just get so affected. i just need to get those stuffs off my chest, before i go crazy. and it's really unbearable now. i say wat i feel honestly.. but wat do i get. cold shoulder?

like seriously.. communication is seriously lacking... just think... when was tha last time we really talked abt ourselves. be it the past, the hopes, the needs and wat we are really feeling deep down inside? Hey. i can't read minds (i wished i could).. there's gotta be communication... maybe i'm too sensitive sometimes.. but i sensed that things changed.. attitude etc. well.. ppl always say actions speaks louder than words. but. when i can't see the actions at all, due to all that distance, the words can give me the assurance that i need. is it really too much to ask of? to express thru words? be it sms, thru phone etc. or even msn!

throughout all theses times, i sensed that change. the things that became lesser, and the distance which increases as time goes by.

i hate to take initiative all the time...

and

i hate this familar feeling...

i'm really getting scared...



nothing lasts forever,
only memories
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