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♥ 13 February, 2008

now now now. things nv seems to be able to go smoothly huh? how nice.

the quarrels. the arguments. wears me out. made me sick. made me tired. causes me those tears that fall down for no apparent reason. how i wish things could be like before. no unhappy events. but it seems so impossible now.

well. perhaps i should admit. it was my fault. partially. no. perhaps. totally if that's wat you want to think. then let it be my fault. i wasn't good enough. my "good" just wasn't enough. maybe we both just had our different definitions of "good"ness. Perhaps i'm expecting too much. perhaps i was being too selfish at times, or well... most of the time you might say. am i really too self- centered? then... are we right for each other? i have no idea anymore.

to let go, or to hold on. i'm stuck in a dilemma actually. i couldn't give an answer. perhaps i dun even know wat i want. maybe i've just been too indecisive for this whole close to 20 yrs of my life.

i guess i should learn. learn to be independent. learn to survive on my own. learn to make the right decisions for myself. learn how not to cry when nothing seems to be right. learn to give in. learn to treat ppl the right way?

till then...

i'm still stuck...

对于你的一言一语的指责。。。我似乎无言以对。

我想。。。 那表示我真的错了吧。。

i can't save myself this time round. absolutely no clue wat to do...

i'm lost...

:(



nothing lasts forever,
only memories
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