Memories ‹3 ;;

♥ 27 February, 2008

wheee~ it's the 1st day of exams tmr. 1st paper IMC. :/ siann. coz it's like a fail-able module for me. got absolutely no clue as to wat mr wee was saying (or maybe preaching) :/ and on top of that... i have YET to study a single shit for tmr. :( probably waking up early tmr morning at abt... 5 to study ba.. sicne the paper's at 3pm :/

well anyways. been working for the past... idunnohowmanydays. :/ i think.. it's either i'm really suffering from the effects of ageing or it's really been too long since i worked so many days straight. :/ coz my feet's really hurting ALOT. :( hur! :( maybe i'm too heavy... x.x

hmmm. initially wanted to go career fair with the peeps from ma maison. but then... i have things on on fri and sat... then monday got paper.. gotta study... so... think maybe cant go le. :/

nevertheless, i shall go SLACK 1st. :x

BYEBYE!

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

8:05 pm

♥ 23 February, 2008

alrights. i'm fine now i guess. though there are still sometimes whereby i unknowingly do and look at things that might remind me of those past memories. but i'm fine now... :))

hmm. been working pretty much this week... for like.. 4 days? initially was asked to work today as well.. but i rejected it. coz was too tired. and i really wan to rest at home and perhaps acc my family. but who knows, i've been alone at home for almost the whole day. :/ my family all got their own programme. :(( hur. being at home is like so boring also. x.x

went ktv pub at boat quay ystd with siew and her frens. it was ok... but i only sang 1/2 a song. :( saddd. wanted to sing more la. hur. drank a little.. felt kind of left out though. coz i dont know the rest... and was rather tired from work previously. :/ and reached home at abt 5.30 in the morning. initially siew wanted to wait till 6am de.. coz no midnight charge by then.. but i really bth liao ~.~

anyways.. most probably going movies and k session next week. YAY! :D there's so many movies i wan to watch... hmm. p.s i love you, the eye (angmoh version), ah long, cj7, deathnote, Fool's gold. HUR. like so many movies i wan to watch lehh. x.x

ohh. and and and. i wanna get another pair of heels. probably red ones? the white ones i own are like hurting my feet like &$%&^ :(( haaa. dont have any red shoes yet. :D RED IS NICE. and can match easily. heh. :D

In just less than 2 weeks. i'll be FREE!!! :D hur. deciding whether or not to go SIM. :/ 1stly, i'm sick and tired of sching, also the sch fees is like damn ex? :/ but then again.. a diploma nowadays is really NOTHING special la. :/ i wonder wat can i do with a diploma. :/ hur.

sighhs. finally getting my diploma soon.. yet i feel rather lost? it seems... my 前途 seems so 无亮. i've got absolutely no idea la. :(

booo. :((

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

8:59 pm

♥ 18 February, 2008

it has, officially ended.

18 feb 2008, Monday.

deceased.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

9:21 pm

♥ 17 February, 2008

is it really gone for good this time round...?

i don't know...

it seems...

whenever we quarrelled, i would cry myself to slp... and the next day.. it seems that we will be fine with each other.. perhaps pretending that nothing's happen...

but seriously.. how many times can we pretend that? there's a limit to everything.

you asked me to make a choice... but it seems that you have already made the choice. so many a times... you mentioned that. If this relationship still meant something to you... why would you bring that up so many times?

haven it occur to you before? why did not not mentioned a single time regarding to break or watsoever? it's coz you meant somethign to me. and i dun wan to risk losing someone impt with my words. you think i can take all this? the attitudes that you gave me..? it seems watever i do is wrong. and you expect me to take your attitude, the way you scold me as if it's nothing? hello. imagine if it was you getting scolded? how would you feel? let me tell you. you will flare up at me. pls. sometimes, pls reflect on yourself.

of course i'm not saying that i'm perfect.. and everything i do is right. i did do wrong things too. but. i just hate the fact that you keep insisting i dont give in when i already did.

you just don't see things from my point of view. you just look at things the way you wan to and refuse to listen to anything.

if that's the case, and you refuse to reflect, and insist that i'm wrong...

then perhaps everything was wrong to begin with. perhaps we'll both be happier without the mistake.

perhaps it's time...

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

10:14 am

♥ 13 February, 2008

now now now. things nv seems to be able to go smoothly huh? how nice.

the quarrels. the arguments. wears me out. made me sick. made me tired. causes me those tears that fall down for no apparent reason. how i wish things could be like before. no unhappy events. but it seems so impossible now.

well. perhaps i should admit. it was my fault. partially. no. perhaps. totally if that's wat you want to think. then let it be my fault. i wasn't good enough. my "good" just wasn't enough. maybe we both just had our different definitions of "good"ness. Perhaps i'm expecting too much. perhaps i was being too selfish at times, or well... most of the time you might say. am i really too self- centered? then... are we right for each other? i have no idea anymore.

to let go, or to hold on. i'm stuck in a dilemma actually. i couldn't give an answer. perhaps i dun even know wat i want. maybe i've just been too indecisive for this whole close to 20 yrs of my life.

i guess i should learn. learn to be independent. learn to survive on my own. learn to make the right decisions for myself. learn how not to cry when nothing seems to be right. learn to give in. learn to treat ppl the right way?

till then...

i'm still stuck...

对于你的一言一语的指责。。。我似乎无言以对。

我想。。。那表示我真的错了吧。。

i can't save myself this time round. absolutely no clue wat to do...

i'm lost...

:(

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

2:15 am

♥ 11 February, 2008

it's a bad feeling :(

:( :'(

sighhs.

thisreallysuckstothemax!!! :(

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

10:14 pm

♥ 07 February, 2008

haaa. i'm feeling sad. i'm not happy. i dunno why. :(

just have that sudden urge to cry my hearts out! :(

BOO~~! :(

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

8:32 pm

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woah. alrights. it's the 1st day of cny. haaaa. i wan to gamble!! :p $.$ :x

hmm. got wow ppcard few days back.. and sometimes.. i really kind of dread playing it.. there's bound to be arguments, quarrels, shouting thru the phone etc. x.x grrr. :( sighhs.

hmmm. 5 projects+ presentations due right after CNY. omg. how to cope? :( it's like we cant even enjoy a proper cny lo. :( gotta do project like everyday? :/ sighhs. crap. and here i am procrastinating again. haaa. i hate sch. :( and. NYP really sucks. other schs' yr3s already graduated lo! and we are still suffeing. :( hurmpph. %$%^4

in 1mth's time. i'm gonna grad! yay!! i'm looking forward! :D hmmm. colleagues asked me to go alogn with them to tioman in apr... but i feel like going to taiwan in march lehh!! x.x but it seems like.. no ppl wan to go... :( siann. maybe i shall just settle for tioman ba.. :/

hmmm, shall end here tonight. nth much to blog abt. :/ life's pretty much the same.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

2:52 am