Memories ‹3 ;;

♥ 27 November, 2007

BOO. i hate this. it's not fair.

why things you can do but i cannot? y can't you spare a thought for how i will feel when you do these things? and when something similar happen to me, you get angry like nobody's business? y can't you put yourself in my shoe?

dammit. :(

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

8:11 pm

♥ 17 November, 2007

BOO!

i'm SAD! :(

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

10:41 pm

♥ 15 November, 2007

arrgh. fuck it.

damn those quarrels. damn those arguments. i really hate this.

i hate it when you ignore me.

i hate myself for saying some things sometimes.

just die. i should just die.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

5:55 pm

♥ 14 November, 2007

sighhs. i'm sad sad sad. :(( dear dear left for msia early this morning. without a word. ok. well he did tell me last night that he's going msia early this morning. but i thought that he should at least send me a msg like right before he go? sighhs. :( SAD. coz i'm missing him already. x.x wonder has he reached yet. :/

hurmms. wonder when will dear dear be back. hopefully by tmr afternoon? coz our anniversary falls on the 16th, which is this friday. however i'll most probably be meeting germaine that day. so i guess i'll meet him tmr instead? maybe go for a dinner or something? oh. and i'd better think of wat to get for him. probably a belated one though. broke already. :( and oh yes. we are together for 3 months already. for all those who thought we will not last. you are so damn wrong!!! go bang the wall, shitheads.

hmm. sch started. and yea. indeed this sem seems more hectic than previous sems. 1st ICAs all falls on week 5, which is the week before we get our 2 weeks break, before X'mas. siann. i hope i can cope. :/ and i wished i'm more hardworking. x.x

and i can't wait to spend x'mas eve and x'mas day with him. hmmm. honestly. this will be like the 1st official x'mas that i'll spend with my bf. coz in the past, it all happens that i'm single during festive seasons. either that or i might be working. like. so suay. :/

i really really hope that we both can last long long long. till we grow old old old. i'm really afraid that what that someone said would come through. However, after serious thoughts. i guess it would be better for me to forget wat that person said? afterall, the more i think abt it, the worse things might become. being paranoid certainly dont do any good. so i guess, i should trust him. and of course, myself.

we will be together for long long long time. i believe.

i love you darling.

ktkl is mine. :D

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

3:10 pm

♥ 10 November, 2007

BOOO!

am feeling moody. emo. frustrated. and i have no idea why. it's like. suddenly?

i feel lonely suddenly. i mean. i've been mainly alone for many years. but now, i'm really disliking this. just thought of how nice it would be if i have a sister. one who's just slightly older than me. someone whom i can share my little secrets with? someone whom will lend me her listening ears. someone whom i can share my room with even. i seriously dun like slping alone sometimes. and i seriously need someone to really understand me. arrgh. :/

i wonder why does it seem so easy for others to mix around and make frens with so many ppl. whereas for me, it just seems so difficult? it seems ppl at school are just a bunch of hypocrites and backstabbers. and i simply dread the fact that i've gotta go back to sch soon. for the last semester. i just keep having the thought to just give it up. i'm sick and tired of those shits going on in sch.

As for work, it just seems that more and more ppl are leaving for places with better prospects. things changed. i sort of missed 2 yrs+ back, when i just joined. felt that things was better than. without the conflicts like now. or perhaps, i just didn't notice that there were conflicts then. anyways. 景物依旧，人面全非. the environment remains the same, it's just more ppl are leaving. perhaps i might wan to leave soon too? perhaps next yr? right after i graduate? but still, i seriously hate changes. or maybe. i'm just afraid of changes. sighhs.

alrights. i'm emo. haaa. i'll be fine. like always. :/

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

12:24 am

♥ 02 November, 2007

woah. like. quite long since i last blogged. hmmm. well, life has been very much the same. worked and went out with dear dear. heee. :D rather happy life currently i would say. :D

butbutbut!!! sch's like starting soon. on the 12th Nov. :( sad. that's like so damn soon. :( it's the last lap, and after that i'll be free!! from the boring theories to the hypocritical so-called "friends" at sch. damn. i simply hate it.

hmmm. just got my salary few days back. and i'm going shopping today!!! hopefully. Lol. need to get a new bag, and shoes probably. and possibly the stuffs on my wish list? Lol. it seems like i've got none of it yet. sighhs. :/

ohhh. andandand. i want to go taiwan!!! Mum just came back and bought really cheap clothes. x.x like $5 only?! omg. that's so tempting. :/ i want to go!!! :( :(

oh wells. probably going mind cafe with dear and some others tmr. not sure if there's other plans though. hopefully it's gonna be a peaceful day for me. :)

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

9:16 am