Memories ‹3 ;;

♥ 25 October, 2007

hmmm. heard something, some rumours abt me and ktkl. it's weird how ppl spread rumours. and i really wonder why do they do that sometimes.

well. was kind of pissed when i heard it. but now come to think abt it. it's really kind of funny. probably it's jealousy that causes ppl to say such untrue things? ok. the rumour has it that ktkl and me broke up. which is so 100% definitely untrue? Lmaos. we are still as loving as ever(at least that's wat i think) and i can't wait to spend every single minute with him.

and i'm actually wondering who started that rumour. my sympathies to that loser. sour grape ehh? boohoohoo~ cry your hearts out dumb shithead or whoever who spread such dumb rumours. the relationship with ktkl is strong enough to withstand such tiny weeny little shit stuffs that you spread. and shame on you asshole. learn to be a fine gentleman or in any case, lady please.

isodamnfuckinglovemyktklsodamnfuckingmuch.

so whatever dumb shits pls stop trying to come between us. much appreciated.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

1:11 am

♥ 22 October, 2007

it's weird how i always wish that time would just freeze whenever we are together. i love the feeling of holding your hands, the feeling of hugging you, the kisses, even by just looking at you, feeling your presence.

it seems many ppl don't expect us to last long? i wonder why. perhaps they just don't understand us. but who cares. i believe we will work out just fine. we'll prove those ppl wrong.

ilovemydearestbabydarlinghoneysweetiekestertan. much much loves. ("v")

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

7:38 pm

♥ 20 October, 2007

fuck fuck DAMN FUCK IT.

i'm pissed.

work was bad. was pissed. felt my rights wasn't respected. damn. i'm only a part timer! i'm paid by the hour. i'm not obliged to help. hey! be fair. show some respect. and show some appreciation pls. dammit.

and yea. we argued again. dammit. i seriously do hate going to slp with my mind thinking abt the unresolve quarrels. was initially tired, but now. i can't slp at all. my mind simply cant rest in peace. why is it that even i give in and apologise, it's so hard for you to accept? and yet still faces your sarcasism. how will i feel? and how will you feel if it's you?

and you can laugh at me regarding my ignorance of the game. but hey. think of it this way, if i know. would i have asked? and pls bear in mind that i'm just a beginner player. and i din even play games like this in the past. and pls. spare a thought for my feelings. how i will feel when i'm being laughed at mercilessly when i asked you a question regarding the game. you just made me feel more inferior. and you didn't even bother to apologise. perhaps you may think it's nth, but hey. you've hurt my pride.

whenever i talk to others regarding something else, you'll always refer to me as flirting? then wat abt yourself? think pls. if i keep saying that you flirt, would you get piss? that remark i made was meant to be some unserious joke, to make fun. and yet you took it so seriously. ok. perhaps i really went too far this time round, but you dont even wan to accept my apology? But before you get angry, did you actually reflect on the times you say i was flirting? the accusations. it's the same thing. you don't like being accused too? would you?

you can say others, but others cannot say you? be fair can? before you do or say anything, pls think of the consequences, and spare a thought for others' feelings.

you may think that i'm trying to change you, your character etc. but it's not. i'm merely asking you to think and reflect more. and try putting yourself in others' shoe. feelings are vulnerable. and it can be hurt easily, even by simple words.

it it really that difficult to understand?

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

1:41 am

♥ 19 October, 2007

i'm feeling jealous. i'm not very happy. i feared for the worst. i hate to think abt wat you all might be doing without me. i detest the lack of confidence in myself. i hate this feeling within me.

i'm really at a lost. should i go? or should i not?

i'm afraid to see what might be happening tmr. yet, not knowing is bad too.

and... do you really want me to go? i dont wan to be an extra there whom nobody welcomes.

pls. tell me.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

9:02 am

♥ 15 October, 2007

woah. had ma maison outing ystd. like finally!! after 1yr. omg. that's damn long la. somemore this yr's sales was cfm better than last yr. omg. work's madness nowadays. :( hmm. we all went geylang eat frog porridge ystd. there's also stuffs like crab, prawns, port, fish etc etc. haaa. and they ta-ed beer. :/ ohh. and and and. we played "dare or dare" :/ how do we play it. supposedly we spin the bottle, whoever the bottle points to when it stop will have to eat a spoonful of delicacy which comprises of the leftovers (green peppers, onions, chilli etc). and damn. they all aim me! :( sighhs. and i went with the eating part. coz if i dont eat it, i'll have to do some other dares that they came up with. one of my colleague was asked to go across the small road and shout out loudly " 一晚五块" which means, $5 for a night. and we were in geylang. :/ LOl. but it was damn funny la. other tables looking at us also. :x

anwyays. started playing wow already. but i think dear dear helped me level more than i did myself. sighhs. i'm still such a noobie. scared of dying. x.x Lol. but it's ok. i'll be working lesser this week, so that means i can play more. hahaha. :D

hmmm. it's the 16th tmr. :) 2mths. :)

much loves. :D

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

3:19 pm

♥ 12 October, 2007

woah. i'm damn damn damn tired. i'm feeling as if my legs are breaking soon. x.x hurmms. worked for 9hrs today. lunch was alright, not that busy. Dinner crowd was the killer. damn the late crowd. :( but but but! i'm still rather happy. i've got a $10 individual tips!! u-hooo~ more than 2 1/2 years there and this is the 1st time i receiving individual tips! I'M HAPPY!!! heh heh. :x

hmm. will be starting to play WOW soon. installed the game, and got the prepaid card already. credit to ktkl. :x heh. will pay him back next month. i will and i must! hopefully i have enough time to play. :/

Sighhs. honestly. i've been thinking. i really have no idea wat to do after graduating. i have no goals. nth. i dun even think i'm good at doing anything. i doubt i'll achieve anything in life. i jsut feel so damn useless sometimes. i dont even see anything good abt myself. so. why am i wasting earth's resources? just die. :/

damn. i'm really getting tired. :(

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

12:43 am

♥ 07 October, 2007

wheee~ i'm back to the happy me again. hmm. things are fine between me and ktkl now. so happy. ^^

hmm. watched resident evil 3(extinction) with ktkl, his sis and bf, and other frens. heh. not bad la the show. but i got scared quite many times. ok. i know i'm a scaredy cat. x.x but the show ending abit.. =.=" cfm got part 4 de. :/

heh. will be celebrating birthday for jack(colleague) with a bunch of colleagues. heh heh. we will be feasting at the central outlet! u-hoooo~ planning my menu already... but still dun really know wat to eat though. like.. quite limited choice lehh. x.x

and and and. after dinner maybe going to watch balls of fury with ktkl and estee. and maybe others too. dunno wat time they watching lehh. hopefully i can join. coz.. it really seems like a nice show la!! I WAN TO WATCH!!! :x

ohh. and i wan to play WOW(world of warcraft) la. x.x been influence by ktkl. :/ seems nice leh the game. hur. but that'll also mean that... abt 300 bucks thrown into the game. after which, 49.40 for every 2 mths. sighhs. high maintenance ah!! x.x shall see how it goes ba. :/

I LOVE KTKL

mybelovedearestdarlinghoneysweetiebabykestertan. ("v")

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

12:17 pm

♥ 06 October, 2007

i'm feeling so fucking painful.

i'm so totally speechless.

and who'd understand wat i'm really feeling?

nobody does.

fuck it.

it is possible to die from crying? probably not.

i'm feeling fucking awful, fucking sad.

and i'm definitely feeling not ok.

am i alone now?

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

1:17 am

♥ 03 October, 2007

i'm be fine. i guess. i'll usually be. no exception this time round i suppose.

but damn it. i can't get to slp. how great.

fuck the aches.

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

1:14 am

♥

watched "The Invasion" today. great show. highly recommended. :)

oh great. i realised. i get affected so easily. even by a word, even when the word doesn't seem hurtful on the surface. i get hurt. fuck. must be my sensitivity again. damn. i hate this. it sucks. big time.

perhaps i'm really too 多管闲事 at times. perhaps i'm causing irritation once again. perhaps i really shouldn't be so bothered. perhaps.perhaps.perhaps. oh fuck it.

i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate this feeling.

i'm afraid...

what if... ...?

nothing lasts forever,

only memories

12:45 am