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♥ 30 September, 2007

well well well. my heart is dangling in the cold once again.

who will understand the agony i'm going through, when your words just pierce through me like a sword. and who can understand how the words had affected me deeply and that damn fucking sadness that i'm feeling deep within me.

you said i dont understand you. perhaps i really dont. then again. do you really understand me? i'm honestly disheartened. so many times. so many arguments. so many disagreements. so many dried tears. so many times. i'm left in the cold.

if you are always putting on a strong front, how am i going to understand??! i wish i can read minds. but no. i cannot. and this really does get pissing sometimes.

perhaps. i'm starting to think. i'm really not good enough. i'm a failure in a sense. i failed to treat you good enough to meet your expectations. i failed to understand you. i failed to cheer you up at most times. i failed to make you feel better abt yourself. the only thing that i'm good at... seems to be making you sad/angry/irritated/frustrated.

damn, i'm having negative thoughts. i feel so damn useless. good for nothing.

once again. i wished i can just disappear into thin air. without a trace. perhaps earth will be a better place. and will you be a happier person then?



nothing lasts forever,
only memories
10:10 pm