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21 June, 2007

i'm tired! alrights. just got back from work not long ago. Lunch crowd was alright. smooth turnover.. but dinner was kind of messed up somehow. i dunno why. maybe coz i din manage well? :( sads. but anyways. it's over. :/ shan't think abt it. Won't be working for the rest of this week. yay! hopefully i'm able to finish up with the "never-ending" projects, with the hope that i don't procrastinate further. :x

Sighhs. I'm really emotionally tired too. R/s is give and take, yet why do i always feel as if i'm the one giving more than take. :( So many times. i asked myself. So many times. i voiced out. and so many times. the blame was put on me. so many tears i wasted. is it really worth it...? When's the time to put a stop to all these emotional torment...?

Arrgh. i dunno wat i want. it seems like i dun even understand myself. in a state of confusion perhaps? i dun know. So many things happened. Feelings emerged. How now? i kept asking myself. but i can't get the answer either. i hate my fickle-minded self. i hate my indecisive-ness.

I kept wondering if it's me being too sensitive.. or does it really mean something.. maybe i just read too much into it? perhaps it's just something simple yet i thought it to be too complicated? i seriously have no idea.

i'm afraid. of making the wrong choices. with so many negative experiences before. so many regrets. if only things could be simpler...

if only... ...

Perhaps i'll be happier? maybe. no guarantees. :/



nothing lasts forever,
only memories
12:41 am