♥ 29 June, 2007
whee. finally it's friday!! ^^
Hmmm was at work ystd. super tiring. bz like dunno wat. wonder where did those ppl come from. and there's even a few fiak up customers. really. gets on my nerve. how i wish i can just give them a punch in their
Sian-ed. today's class at 3pm. till 4pm. 1 hr only . stupid timetable. :s However, today got NAPFA at 5.30pm. die-ed. so long nv exercise liaos. i scared 2.4km. i hate running. :( hmmm let's recall, my secondary sch timing for 2.4km was.... 16min? die. if later i "run" 20min how! malu can. :( must go dig out my track shoes later. think i wore it only.. twice since i bought it 2yrs+ ago. x.x hopefully it's not spoilt yet. arbo i really need to wear my converse run liaos. :S
Hmm. tmr replacing colleague for work. from 5.30 onwards. tiring. but! it's the end of the month! yay! payday!!! ^^ finally. hahaahahaha. i got so many things to buy. so many things to do. :s. Need to buy wallet, cut hair, get more clothes?... buy slimming pills? :x die. not enough money again this month. T.T nvm. buy wallet 1st i guess. the rest. can wait. hopefully i can. :x
not enough slp these days. been slping late and waking up early.. on average slp for 4 hrs only. :( maybe i should go take a nap before going to school. :x
*crawls away*
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
9:47 am
♥ 27 June, 2007
exhausted! just got back form work not long ago. today quite okok la. not very busy. manageable. probably coz it's end of the month, everybody broke liao, so less dining out. :D that's good. :p
anyways. submitted the Intl Mkt project today. dun have much confidence in it though. felt wat i did was rather crap and disorganised. :/ and the worse thing is. after submission, one of my classmates called to tell me that someone else in my class is also doing on the same company with me! when we all aer suppose to have chosen different ones! like. DAMN. :( i chose it 1st la. and she just did on that company without finding out if anybody else is doing it too. like. damn selfish. damn unfair to me can. pek cek. pissed! spoilt my mood. Like that the teacher sure will compare de lor. unfair unfair unfair! :( @$#@#!%$*
Sighhs. anyways. i predict that i'll be working more often from next week onwards. :( due to the changes in opening hrs. :( sad. tired sia. :/ Somany more projects to go. 3 group projects to be submitted in 3 weeks time? So little time, so many things to do. T.T
i needa a break. really can't wait for the holidays. i wan to go overseas!!! :/ however, not possible. :/
alrights. shall end my nonsense here tonight. shall go slack. :x
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
11:55 pm
♥ 26 June, 2007
Did nth much in sch today. other than 1 hr lect for Intl Mkting and 2hr MR Tutorial. Hahaa. i camwhored while waiting for MR tutorial to start. :p
ok.. here's the 1st one.. there's more though. however, not so nice. so decided not to post. Muahas. and i realised, one side of my face looks better than the other. :/ so can only take angle shots! :s
Hmm. here's the edited one, using my hp! heeeheee. results not bad. :D
edited this too! :x
Somehow.. i seem to like this the most? looks rather unlike me though. this looks way better than my original self! muahahahahs :x
ok. end of camwhoring. been trying to smile, laugh as much as possible. preventing myself from getting emo etc.. :/ tmr will be a better day? hopefully. Guess i'll feel more relieve after submitting Intl Mkting project tmr. :D
Heh. will be meeting up with him after sch, before work tmr.. He helped me buy contact lens so have to go collect from him.. :s Hopefully it won't be awkward when we meet up. :/
shall end here today.. i'm feeling slpy... :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
5:56 pm
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alrights.. woke up at 8am. been wasting time since. was suppose to do my project! T.T deadline: wed 27/6 12pm sharp. :s and i'm left with 2 parts not done. 35 marks. >.< omg. so dead. :s i'm plain lazy.
been stomping. nth much to do... feeling restless too. sch starts at 1pm. ends at 5. sianed.
sighhs. i've been thinking abt stuffs again. so many things/problems etc. :( will be working tmr, thur, friday. hope everything will be smooth. work prevents me from thinking too much. that's good i suppose. perhaps i should work more. Haha. ;x
GUess i gotta go prepare for sch oredi.
i hate sch. :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
11:19 am
♥ 25 June, 2007
Alrights. back to sch after 2 weeks break. sian-ed. did alot of crap in sch today. walked past north canteen today.. re-opening. Heh heh. saw some flowers outside north canteen. plucked some. :p
the lilies' mine.. roses are "stolen" by others k. not me. :p
Ok.. starts to zi lian with the flowers. ugly though.. :(
ehh. it's just 1 stalk of lily k.. though it looks like there's alot.. but there's many on that stalk. :p
ok.. got bored.. took pic of my fingernails. Hahas. pink nail polish. :s i got fat fingers. :<
Ok. that's wat i had for brunch. Iced Milo+Sandwich. :D
My big red bag. for me to throw all my "junks" inside. haha. :x
Sighs. boring classes today. got back quality management test paper today. lousy marks. :( sadded thought i could do well sia. disappointment. >.<
Had entrepreneurship presentation today as well. i din present well la. :( guess insufficient practise ba. :/ abit cui. :(
Sighhs. Intl Mkting project due on wed. been procrastinating for days... shall go do it.. later.
been having stomachache for days already.. yet it doesn't seem to be the kind of "i wan to poop" feeling.. dunno wat happen sia. :/
anyways. shall go slack for awhile before getting back to my project. boo. :/
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
7:12 pm
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戴爱玲- 对的人
你问在我心中 是否还苦恼
那次受伤 否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照 我一切都好
一个人 不算困扰爱
虽然很美妙 却不能为了寂寞 又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)
那次流过的泪 让我学习到
如何祝福 如何转身 不要
在眼泪体会到 与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要 是一种对照
能愿意为了一份爱 付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候 我就算已经准备
好放手去爱 海阔天高
喔... 耶...
i love this song. :( :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
6:49 pm
♥ 23 June, 2007
i'm so dead. i can't seem to finish my International Marketing project. :( weightage 20%. cui can! :( i suck la. >.< 2 weeks break ending soon.. and "break" means a time and period to rest right. then why is the damn sch loading us with so many projects?! i'm dying of project overdose oredi la!
save me pls somebody. :(
now i really wished i have a thinking cap. :( ok. i'm dreaming. :/
Sian la. going back to sch on monday liao.. 2 weeks so fast. T.T Monday got presentation somemore... dress code= smart casual. sian. still haven thought of wat to wear sia.. :/
exams in august. :s scared. Yet, i'm actually kind of looking forward to that? lol. after exams finally can have abt 2mths break le. like finally. For 1yr+. we didn't have a long break. the long awaited is finally going to arrive! yay!
Anyways. shall get back to project 1st. :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
12:32 am
♥ 21 June, 2007
Sighhs. i guess it's really the end of us now. "talk" thru sms. and decide that it's best for a time out period for both of us now.
well. apparently he said he felt breathless at times.. and hinted that i'm too demanding..? sighs. i dunno know. the way he put it, it's like evrything is my fault? honestly.. i dun sense his love for me anymore... not like before.. maybe i'm not good enough. i dunno... maybe.. i just can't handle a relationship properly? i really wonder how do ppl maintain the r/s for like 3, 4 yrs. just sounds so amazing.
to be honest.. i'm not super sad or emo over this... just.. feel kind of empty..? maybe the love had faded, and it's just for a sake of having a companion that's why i put up with everything.. i dun understand myself even.
sometimes really hate myself. :( is being single really better? i dun know. :( where's the right one...?
a fairytale seems impossible :( . Why?!
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
1:39 pm
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| You Are Destined to Be Thin |
 Even if you aren't thin right now, you have great habits that will ensure you're thin for most of your life. You have a great relationship with food and eating. Don't change a thing. |
Hahahahs! i wished! not accurate de... :( i wan to be thin! slim! skinny! :( :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
9:36 am
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| You are a Great Girlfriend |
 When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too! |
Muahahs. really? :( :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
9:33 am
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Sian-ed. got nth to do. went to blogthings.com to do the tests. kill time. rather fun. :D
| You Are a Natural Beauty! |
 You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless |
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
9:11 am
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i'm tired! alrights. just got back from work not long ago. Lunch crowd was alright. smooth turnover.. but dinner was kind of messed up somehow. i dunno why. maybe coz i din manage well? :( sads. but anyways. it's over. :/ shan't think abt it. Won't be working for the rest of this week. yay! hopefully i'm able to finish up with the "never-ending" projects, with the hope that i don't procrastinate further. :x
Sighhs. I'm really emotionally tired too. R/s is give and take, yet why do i always feel as if i'm the one giving more than take. :( So many times. i asked myself. So many times. i voiced out. and so many times. the blame was put on me. so many tears i wasted. is it really worth it...? When's the time to put a stop to all these emotional torment...?
Arrgh. i dunno wat i want. it seems like i dun even understand myself. in a state of confusion perhaps? i dun know. So many things happened. Feelings emerged. How now? i kept asking myself. but i can't get the answer either. i hate my fickle-minded self. i hate my indecisive-ness.
I kept wondering if it's me being too sensitive.. or does it really mean something.. maybe i just read too much into it? perhaps it's just something simple yet i thought it to be too complicated? i seriously have no idea.
i'm afraid. of making the wrong choices. with so many negative experiences before. so many regrets. if only things could be simpler...
if only... ...
Perhaps i'll be happier? maybe. no guarantees. :/
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
12:41 am
♥ 18 June, 2007
arggh. alright. i'm pissed now. my fren just tell me that we are suppose to meet up in sch for proj tmr. but i got work la. damn. like wth. forever so last min, so sudden, so... #$%#% and nobody even bothered to inform me? din even bother to mass email all in the grp to ensure everybody knows? wth. i'm really. rather pissed. :(
SIAN LA! got work till 3pm tmr. intended to meet up with siew. now this. sorry la girl. :( as you can see it's not my fault! shit la. is my birthday present really gonna seh gor and be thrown away after the 20th?! :( hurmms. bad. :(
it's like so super irritating. to rush to sch right after work. "great" man. spoilt my day. sch sucks. :( i hate sch.
i wish that time would just freeze. :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
7:47 pm
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now now now. after that emo post of mine. it's time to post up some things which happened for the past one week or so?
Hmm. let me recall...
ok... Went port dickson with mama last last weekend. nth much that. a lil small small town. it's like.. the kind whereby you will nv get lost there, the car turn here turn there and you'll end up at the same place. Quite a ulu place though, but the resort is nice. ^^ however, it's quite an open concept. go in the room, 1st thing you see is the bathroom 1st, go thru another door, then you'll reach the bedroom. which means.. if you wan to bathe, the ppl inside the room can't get out, and the ppl outside can't get in. like so inconvenient. x.x . nth much to shop there also.. :/ abit sian la huh.. :/
alrights. been working subsequently... really tired. recently so many problems also. T.T and i really wonder. when are they going to raise my salary. like WHEN? :( been 1yr+ since it the last increment of 50cents :/ pathetic.
sighss. grandpa in hospital for few days already. due to appendititis(i dunno how to spell) in fact he starting showing symtoms of it since mths ago? yet doctors thought he had food poisoning. like WTH. and it dragged till now, he was puking and complaining of extreme pain before being admited into teh hospital and it was then that the doctors in SGH realised it was appendititis. and they even dare to say that it's quite serious! like who causes that! @$#@^#%$# And now he's too weak to even undergo operation.. all they can do is give him antibiotics, hopefully it will cure somehow. Thank goodness he's getting better already. should be able to go home soon.
alrights.. got my attachment results like few days back. B+ only! sad can. majority of my classmates got A. :( sighhs. i thought that there could be a good chance of me getting an A.. but. sad la! :( sighhs. i'll never be an "A" student.. :(
ok.. went out with someone. had alot of fun i would say. been long since i felt so happy? really enjoyed myself, though it was just a simple dinner, walkaround, slacking around.... :) thanks. :)
Perhaps.. it's time to make some decisions? argh i dun know. :(
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
2:49 pm
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Hmm. new blog, new beginning? not exactly. perhaps just a "place" for me to vent my frustrations, should there be any, and also to "pour" the stuffs which i find impossible to say it out. loud. wadever.
Sighs. Maybe it's really not meant to be? i dun know. perhaps all ppl do change over time... from good to bad, bad to worse? :( it was so different when it all began. so why the difference now. :( it's saddening to see stuffs like that happening again and again. and i'm seriously tired. of saying and repeating the same old things again and again. How now? arghh. is a r/s really that hard to maintain? i tried to. at least i felt i tried. tearing times and again over many many things. be it big or small. perhaps. i'm just useless, crying over stuffs which you may deem as insignificant. wadever. yea yea yea. all i know is to cry cry and cry. wat to do. sad life.
I'm seriously tired. quarrels/arguements more and more often. Perhaps you'll say that it's me anyhow-thinking again. but hey. have you heard of teh phrase 无风不起浪. (wu feng bu qi lang). if it wasn't for something taht you've done or said, would i have felt that way? ok. maybe i was being overly sensitive or wat. i admit, at times it happens, and i get emo or watsoever. but. argh.
I hate it when you dun even send me a single msg for a day. you might be busy. i noe. call me unreasonable watever. But at least, i'll noe that you are fine? Is sending me a msg to inform me that you've safely reached home so difficult? I noe at times i might be working or busy or wat, and it seems pointless to msg, but i'll get to see it after work right? at least i can be assured that nth happened to you or wat.
Many times, you left me wondering wat happened to you, crying even, worrying. etc. you may think i'm paranoid. i admit i am. if you had meant nth to me, would i have bothered? NO!
So many incidents... i'm really tired. r/s really wears me out sometimes. perhaps... single is really the better option? i dun know.
it's been so many days... so many things happened... and you know none or minimal. did you even bother to ask? no. neither did you told me abt your stuffs. once again. you seemed a stranger to me. we lack the mutual understanding i suppose.
i'm beginning to feel cold... my heart. that is.
nothing lasts forever,
only memories
11:00 am
