all along, it's just me alone.

2009-09-01T09:36:00.003+08:00

been very lazy recently.. and also busy.. but life has defintely been good. :D

last weekend was great. went to find BB.. Friday watched The Final Destination. Movie was so-so.. just the dying parts were damn bloody. :/ but movie rather short though..

Saturday night played MJ with his family.. lose money. :(

then sunday evening went Tony Roma for dinner with edmw peeps. :D

and he surprised me with a bouquet of shocking pink roses. ^^ absolutely loved it! :D

BB was a super bigggg eater!

we both shared the following:

Coke
Half onion loaf (yummy, similar to onion rings texture)
Baked potato skins with cheese, bacons, sour cream (abit over baked :( )
Ribs with carolina honey sauce+roast chicken+mashed potato+coleslaw ( Ribs was yummy! but the meat can be abit more tender, roast chicken was great, honey glazed! mashed potato so-so, coleslaw sucks. :( )

seriously i wouldn't mind going back there again.. :o

And we finish every single thing... but BB said he's still not full... he told me he can still finish another 1 1/2 portion of Ribs with carolina honey sauce+roast chicken . super scary. but i like! so next time i can throw all my unfinished food to him! :p heheheheh.

I just enjoyed every single moment we spent in each other's company. :)

baby, i love you! :)

2009-08-18T21:02:00.003+08:00

I missed weekend. :(

was spending over at BB's place. although time was short, but i just enjoyed every single moment. :) i'm just glad to have found you. and i'm confident that i made the right choice. :)

went for the first acupuncture session ystd. My silly BB accompany me there since he's off. heee. i just look forward to seeing my sweet BB everytime. :) had needles poked at tummy + leg area. felt like ant bite.. with some tingling feeling of the electricity. :s. silly BB said he heartpain.. but i feel more heartpain lor..

coz he had to wait with me all the way till 9+ then eat dinner leh. :( sorry BB, i made your tummy suffer. :(

anyway, after dinner BB sent me home... seriously hate to part with him. :(

BB said he falling sick soon liao.. how how how. x.x hope he recovers soon. T.T

sorry baby i cant be there to take care of you. :(

another 3 long days before i can see him again. :'(

FUG MAN. so long :'(

2009-08-12T21:21:00.006+08:00

i'm glad i found you. :)

am looking forward to the weekend, when i can get to see you. :) though time might be short together, but i believe both of us will treasure whatever we have.

muacks! :)

missed you deeply. :(

2009-08-11T22:40:00.006+08:00

We all make choices at some point of our life.

decisions and choices. We'll never know if it's right or wrong from the start... it takes time..

but whatever it is, once the choice is made, there's no turning back. It's like a gamble.. you just keep going straight ahead and there's no u-turn. It's when you finally find the pot of gold at the end of rainbow then you know that you've not made a mistake...

Throughout the journey of finding that "pot of gold", of course there might be some negative "feedbacks" from ppl.. and the oh-so-not-positive comments and the yada yada yada etc..

but owells. you only live once. live it without regrets. do whatever you want.

and i'm doing what i want to. right now. i want to ignore all those negative whatsoever. nothing shall affect my decision. :)

i too, hopes to find that pot of gold real soon. i believe the new path which i've chosen will lead me to it. :)

2009-07-29T20:11:00.001+08:00

am too lazy to update blog nowadays.

let's just say... too many shits happened. too many to blog. :(

BOO. :(

2009-05-13T21:16:00.004+08:00

heh. finally. my 21st bday celebration is this coming Friday. 15 May 09.

kind of excited. :s but like got so many things/food not prepared. scared it will turn out as a failure... scared too many ppl.. cant accommodate so many ppl. :( but anyways. i'll be looking forward to the midnight MJ session! heheheee. :D

and not to forget. the bday presents and angbaos. :

heeeheee. i'm like already in holiday mood liao. these few days dont really have the mood to work. ;p.

anyways. do let me know if you are coming! :)

2009-04-29T09:12:00.004+08:00

it's been 1 mth since i started working at scb. heh. been rather happy so far. :D

way better than previous employment definitely. ^^

though it's OT till abt 8 everyday, and back to office on saturday. but felt it's worth it. at least i work hard for my own salary. :)

met up with ex colleagues ystd. was informed abt ex-coy's current situation. paycut 10% and 5 working days. like damn WTH. before i left it was still 4 working days, which at least did not make the paycut seems so bad. but now they gave you extra shits to do yet you get lesser pay. damn f up. :/ and for this wk they actually have to take unpaid leave up till next tuesday. which is like full 6days of "rest". meeting up with them again. perhaps some pedicure? ;p well. maybe. damn broke already. so many expenses. :'(

heh anyway. been planning abt my bday chalet. thinking abt food and all. am afraid that cant cope with so many ppl. :( Costa Sands is just too small to accomodate so many ppl lor. :( estimation of the attendees to be abt... >60? oh damn. how how how. :(

siann. i need more retail therapy! :x

2009-03-25T20:33:00.006+08:00

okok. i know i very long nv blog liao. super lazy can. :'(

owells. forfeited my salary for the month of March, topped up a sum of money to leave THAT COMPANY. :/

so now, new job, new job scope. better salary ( with incentives), hopefully better ppl and i guess i'll probably enjoy the job more?

hmm. started work since 23.. 1st day was HR briefing.. subsequently went office for more system training etc. more or less understood how it works. hopefully can get to start work officially soon in order to EARN MORE MONEY! :s suddenly feeling very motivated. haaa. super many debts to pay off. :'(

hopefully i can do well in this new job. :/

2009-03-12T20:48:00.003+08:00

heh. got a new job riaos. tendered. but no have 1 month notice. TMD. need to compensate 1 month salary. :( sighs... but it's ok, i believe the new place, will definitely be better X 100! :s

starting work at new office on 23 Mar, tmr go sign letter!

finally! after so many torturous months (no thanks to those arseholes).. i'm leaving that damn place!! :D

Bye to 大嘴巫婆+taichi master+menopausal woman! May our paths not cross again in future! ;)

2009-03-03T19:27:00.003+08:00

i'm happy~!! :D

i'm enjoying as everyday passes. Life is certainly better now. Knowing that there's someone who'll always be there for you. :)

anyways. am looking for new jobs now... anybody got any lobang bo? :(

2009-03-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

damn. i lost my hse key. :(

sibei jialat. :'(

2009-02-15T10:51:00.004+08:00

Heh. blogging again. owell. this is a really OUTDATED post. :s like. i think supposedly2 weeks ago? :x was really just to lazy to blog la. :s

Anyways. went to Hog's Breath at CHIJMES. First time there... well. ambience wise, okok but the live band was rather annoying though.. :s Think we over-ordered coz we cant finish the food at all! wat a waste! :( Took some pictures as follows...

That's their menu... :s

Our appetiser, baked potato skin.. super NICE!!! :D but it's quite filling as an appetiser..

That's mine, Tex-Mex combo. it's really alot lo, still got rice hidden below somemore. :/ Beef was actually rather disappointing.. requested for medium rare, came medium. :( perhaps my expectations were too high as i heard from frens that the beef was good. :( anyways, couln't finish.

That's some mango-sauce salmon. not bad... but the fish could be better.. though it was a little too over-cooked. :/

That's the over-all picture.

We has a mud-cake for dessert. NICE! but sinful. :o

ok.. so that's abt it.. total bill came up to 97dollar. omg. damn broke already. :(

2009-02-01T22:33:00.003+08:00

whee~ went many places during the weekend. was very happy! :D

first went to watch Underworld. Hmm. not bad la.. though the female lead not as chio as previous Kate Beckingsale. :o

Heh. after movie went up Mt Faber. Think i nearly died climbing up the stairs at 1 shot. ;s Initially was suppose to go see sunset. but it happened that it was rather cloudy that day. so cant get to see the sunset. :( owells. anyways. after the sun supposedly set, walked to The Jewel Box, whereby they have 5 restaurants there, western and chinese.. we settled for Jade Empress restaurant, the chinese one . :o

Some pictures for the meal...

Here's the cover page of the menu.. :s

The setting of the table.. dim lightings. :)

The view outside of the restaurant. :)

The arrangement inside the restaurant..

Our first dish, Paper wrap chicken. Doesn't look very appealing from the picture, but it's seriously not bad. Don't have the very oily feeling after eating. :s

Veggie with 3 eggs (Century egg+salted egg+chicken egg) :s not bad also. :D

The sweet & sour pork. is super nice!! i think it's one of the best i've tasted!! It's really crispy on the outside, and soft inside. LOVE IT!!

Lastly we also ordered the E-Mian. Looks ordinary but it's really nice. The noodle is very QQ one even though we left it soaked in the sauce awhile. ;s NICE! :D

The overview while walking down the stairs..

Here's how the outside of the restaurant looks like. :)

Overall. i'm very satisfied with the place. With good service and good food. :D but it's rather pricey though. 100 bucks for all those food, probably due to the surcharge of CNY as well.. :/ But owells, once in a while indulgence should be ok i guess. :o

2009-01-28T10:22:00.004+08:00

sibei sian. CNY holiday gonna be over soon. back to work tmr. feeling very emo somehow. go back work tmr sure got alot of shits to clear one. T.T somemore need to backup for colleague who's on leave. Dept got 13 ppl. more than half on leave for Thur & Fri. RAHH! T.T

anyways. ate many many yusheng this yr. minimum 4. Another company one coming up next wednesday. Hopefully this yr is really can HUAT AH~! :s

So here's some random reunion dinner pics. Was at this place in TPY with grp of frens. :o

Chua Seng Huat Seafood "Restaurant" in TPY (Lor 8 i think)

Forgot to take picture of the Yusheng. :s anyways. here's the sharks' fin. :o didn't really like sharks fin to begin with, so to me, it was so so only lo. :

They pre-ordered Suckling Pig too. Yummy yum yum~ very nice. :D but expensive though. $160 for few pieces of mostly pig skin. :s

Kailan with some abalone-lookalike mushrooms. :s

Fish. i dont know what it's called, doesn't look very appealing in the picture also.. but seriously it's not bad la. :s

Some i-dunno-wat-chicken. :s

Some steam prawns? Really very lazy to peel those shells man. :(

Kong Ba Bao~ it was so so only. i thought my dad can do better. ;)

Lastly is the dessert. Almond tofu with Longan. Typical. :s

Hmm. overall the food was quite alright lo. but maybe abit expensive due to CNY season. They all probably mark up the price by alot. :/ for 10pax the dinner cost abt $368 altogether, exclusive of drinks la. :s This kind of price is can eat in restaurant liao lo. But it's ok la. since this kind of thing also once a yr. :s

Oh. went to do manicure specially for CNY also. quite happy with the final "product" :D

Red nail polish with bling bling glitter~! ^^ nice! i likes! :D

Watched several movies also. Eden Lake, Love Matters.. and i cant remember. :s

Eden lake really sucks to the core man. i can really name it the worse movie i've watched for the yr. eeek! total waste of money! :(

Love Matters was alright. Typical Jack Neo production. makes you laugh here and there. then attempt to make you touched. and adapting from real life examples which have happened within the past few yrs. steal ideas here and there, tadaaa~ you get a new movie. :/ owells. nothing much to comment abt. :s

Heh. Cny this yr wasn't very good i suppose. Angbaos really shrunk alot man. :( i have this aunt who used to give me $20, shrunk to $6 this yr. T.T sibei jialat! :(

Hmmm. been wondering how shall i celebrate B'day this yr. 21 Years old orledi. :( Time really flies. Sighs. The usual chalet? Pub - No Drunk No Go Home? or wat? any suggestions from anybody? coz i seriously dont have much idea man. :(

But owells, maybe i should start saving first... ;s.

2009-01-10T09:48:00.002+08:00

Heh. okays. been really damn long since i last blogged. like 1 month? :s

let's see what have i done recently. Hmm. Shopping? Mainly for CNY clothings. But owells, i did wear some already. :s hehehe.

Watched many movies also. Bedtime Stories, YesMan, Seven Pounds. etc. :s Quite like these movies. :D ^^

Hmm. went ove to Vivocity's "No Signboard" for dinner with colleagues, total 8 inclusive of myself. We had White Pepper Crab, Chilli Crab, Cereal Prawns, Honey Chicken, Fried Sotong, Minced meat on Tofu. etc. Damn alot. In fact, we cant even finish lo. So wasted. :( And was abit stunned when saw the bill. :/ $435 for 8 person. :s Siong ah! :( somemore got leftover the crabs and prawns. x.x

Damn sian, recently the bitch at work, kept throwing her job to me again. TMD. I'm having the urge to quit my job again. :( but times are bad, sure hard to find job one. very the sian. T.T

I shall be more tolerant for the time being. :/

getting lazy orledi. gonna watch Red Cliff 2 later! heheheheeh! hopefully it's nice. ^^

2008-12-12T09:20:00.004+08:00

woah. okays. this is a really outdated post. hahaahah. but anyways. here's the 2nd part to the wedding. DINNER! :D Held at Fullerton. heh. :s

Here's the Cocktail Reception before the start of the dinner, see that ppl are generally rather well dressed. :s

Hmm. went in, seated on the table. Heh. Bro and i were placed at the "Cousins Only" table. while all our parents were at the other. Quite a good arrangement i suppose, saves us from hearing how our parents complain abt our bad behavious (if any) to other relatives. :p

looks nice and rather classy. :)

The 8-course dinner menu for the night. :s

Here's the Cold DIsh/ Appetiser. some mixed i-dunno-wat. :s Taste was quite alright..

Cod fish for the night. Very nice! :D

Some spinach with mushrooms and sea cucumber..

This was Rice with Foie Gras. :s That's my first time eating Foie Gras. Don't really like it.. :s But the rice was really damn nice! :D

Dessert was Mango Sago. Not bad also. :D

Ohh. and we had this souvenir, something rather creative. It's a Bottle-Stopper! designed as Bride & Groom top. :)

Hmm. didn't manage to take all pictures of the food as i kind of forgot when the food was served to me. :s Anyways, went home abt 11+ after dinner. :)

Cousin's wedding Pt.1

2008-12-10T20:51:00.013+08:00

woke up early today. the usual hrs i wake up for work. sighs. on leave also cannot slp till later. didn't have breakfast also. :(

anyways. reached Aunt's place sometime before 8am. helped with some balloon decorations, made some "delicious breakfast set" for the groom and bestmen. :s owells, basically it's just some sandwich, with wasabi spread, toped with chilli padi and raw garlic (whole), decorated with ketchup. :s and the drink was coke mixed with wasabi, raw eggs and coffee mate!! x.x the thought of it, makes me shrudder man. ~.~

Took some pics of the decorations before the groom comes...

many many balloons. ;s

i like this! colour very nice. :s

The 2 little imps. :D

the groom and gang came at abt 9am. The groom was rather steady la. finished the super er xin liquid in a gulp. and 2 others finished the horrible sandwich. :s the smell was so damn strong la. i think the "stench" nearly "killed" us all while negotiating the price for the angbao. :s oh and the groom and gang were also required to do some sexy dancing, and come up with a chinese poem with the bride's name, whereby he supposedly read it aloud while outside her room door. quite sweet la. :)

after some photo taking, we all proceed on to the groom's place, for more photo taking and etc. got some angbaos too. :D has some food as well.

That's the bride and groom. :). Cousin is really pretty! :D

little imp no. 1 looked so sian. :(

little imp no. 2 is always acting shy. :s

and it's always so difficult to take a proper picture of them. :(

Anyways. went back aunt's place at abt 11+ close to 12. for the tea ceremony and everything else. more food! haha. :s

was camwhoring with mama. she made me take so many pics of her. =.=|

That's my mama!~

Came back home abt 3+, 4 like that. very the tired. :( seriously not enough slp lo. x.x
napped awhile from 6 to 7+. woke up and rot till now. heh.

shall continue the Pt.2 of the wedding next time. after the wedding dinner tmr night.

i still dont know what to wear. T.T

2008-12-10T02:41:00.003+08:00

Had a long weekend. was rather boring actually.

watched Bolt. which is really super nice! i really wouldn't mind watching it again. coz it's like so cute la!! and oh. i watched the normal one.. shall catch the 3D one if i get the chance. :D

hmm. Had Ichiban Sushi. ordered that set call... Don Don wazen or something like that. the the portion is really omgwtfbbq. super alot of rice. seriously can make me puke. :s ok. i'm exaggerating a little. but it's really alot of rice!! :s

after that went to play the old sch "kiap plushie" thingy in the arcade. is bruff money one. :( owells. i must have been unlucky. :(

heh. cousin's wedding in 5 hrs time. gotta wake up at 6. and now i'm still typing away. :s i think i'll seriously turn into a panda man. :s really feel like backing out. coz i really have no intention of being the bridesmaid lo. :( so tiring.. :s

am yawning away now. tired liaos.

goodnights. :s

2008-12-01T01:11:00.002+08:00

been real lazy to blog. :/

heh. been quite ok recently i suppose. got variable bonus. :D satisfactory amt!! ^^ upgraded my m1 student plan and got myself a Samsung Omnia. :D 8gb only one la. but it's more than enough for me. ^^ heh. love it! so far no problems for me. :) hehehe. hopefully next month's AWS will be more. :x

hmm. watched Madagasca2 and 4 Christmases. Well. Madagasca was not bad. funny, light-hearted. the kind whereby you watch and you forget.
As for 4 Christmases, i kind of like it actually. It's actually quite meaningful in a way.. abt the honesty, understanding, and the issues which couples face. And it just reminded me of some stuffs too. :/

Owells. Xmas's coming soon. heh. what to do for Xmas Eve?! i certainly do not wan to be stranded at home okays. :( probably gonna shop for some xmas present soon i suppose. :/ It's money spending time!! :(

Hur. been slping rather late these days, somehow, just cant seem to get to slp early.. :( idk why.

2008-11-22T13:39:00.005+08:00

hmm. okays. it's seems quite soem time since i last updated decently. heh. many things happened, did many things. suffering from STM, thus forgotten what i did exactly also. :/

anyways. on monday took half day leave, to go shopping with aunt, cousins, and cousin's kids. main purpose is to get dress and shoes for the upcoming wedding of another cousin. heh. suppose to choose cream/champagne coloured ones.. to match with the bride's gown i suppose. anyways. we (me and another 2 more cousins) also dont need pay. so dont care, just buy... :x hmm. had quite a hard time picking my dress and shoes .. am quite suay that day i suppose.. keep dont have my size. :( but anyhows, managed to find suitable ones at the end.

had mos burger too, aunt treat. owells. she's rich wat. :/ heh. realised my niece and nephew are really crazy little kids man. they can jump from left to right of the mos burger seats. super naughty. but. damn cute! totally unlike them when they are at home.. like damn shy one. :/

That's my niece. ;)

That's the act shy buay shy nephew. :D

super cute!

i loves. ‹3 :x

Heh. this morning had a company RC event. Paintball Competition. early morning gotta wake up.. machiam go work like that.. went to katib, from there then colleague fetch us over to Bottle Tree Park. weather was hot like sauna. :( But owells, had lotsa fun la. and oh yes. we have a TEA-Mascot. HAAHAH. damn funny one la. i guess it really brightens up everybody's day. :D

That's Shiino-san in the grren costume...

Take a closer look, he's a Fish-Man!

Okays, now that's 2 mascots. ;p

Hur. and the paintball is really cannot anyhows pway pway one. :( kena bruised. damn painful. T.T. it's like once kena hit, will swell and orh-cheh lor. the impact is "shiok-ness" man. ~.~ was all sweaty and tired after the game. :( i wan take mc on monday!! :x

hmmm. i wan get a new hp! M! sent me a 150 voucher already! damn happy. :D valid till 14dec only though. :/ Shall go see got what good hp asap. :D

alright. guess that's abt it... damn tired...

2008-11-21T01:02:00.007+08:00

hypocrites are really good at "hiding" themselves.
and very often, it's too late when i realise that.

what's done, cannot be undone.
what's said, cannot be unsaid.
what's undone, is too late to do.
what's left unsaid, shall remain that way.
there's no point saying anything else now anyway.

my life still goes on, whether happy or sad, it's just another day for me and everybody else.

i'll be fine. :)

2008-11-10T17:23:00.001+08:00

this feeling...

it's not right.

:(

2008-11-09T23:21:00.003+08:00

another weekend gone. :(

But owells. the weekend was rather eventful i suppose? as compared to some previosu ones.

Had Hanabi Japanese Buffet. ‹3!! heh. initially they wanted to go kuishin bo. but i think the reservations are like fully booked or something. so they booked the hanabi at Odeon Towers instead. heh. $39 for Hanabi as compare to $50+ for Kuishin Bo, i would say i'm glad we went to Hanabi. The sashimis is SHIOK-NESS! :D we ate so much much! i think at least... 20 portions of Salmon and Hamachi! :D But the service wise.. i would say.. there's many rooms for improvement. :/ one of the waitress had this super "stinky" face. :/

After Hanabi-ing, abt 8+ we walked over to marina. walk walk. starbucks-ed. then went to watch Quantum of Solace at abt 11pm. Oh. initially wanted to see if can get a pair of nice shoes. but no luck. actually saw this pair that i quite like, but left only the display set. jitao sian diao. :( damn sad. my shoe spoilt since last week la. :( new shoe new shoe!!! :(

Hmm. the movie was not bad. but i want to watch Saw5 leh! wonder if i can just gei siao go in without them checking my ic. :/ but GV is rather strict though. :( sadness. shall see how. :/

ohhh. and congrats to GF! :D

2008-11-03T00:22:00.003+08:00

heh. ok. here come the updates.

Another month is gone, november already. BONUS come come! :D i'm so gonna get a new hp end of this month (if possible) ^^. Well. it seems like everyday just passes by like any other day. nth new, nth interesting. :/ is singapore really THAT boring? :/ sighs.

hmm. watched Tropic Thunder last weekend? dumb lame show. quite funny at some parts though. managed to make me LOL many times. :) sighs. i wan to watch REC & The coffin. :/

pt-ed at MM for twice last week. had some gay talk with some of the peeps. damn funny. haha. they were talking abt some ass-poking stuff and etc stuffs like that. :x oh. and i had free chocolate cake too. damn nice. :D but sinful though. i got sicked eating half of it. :/ the chocolate is too rich. :( i missed drinking sessions with MM peeps. :(

heh i'm glad my hair colour is still there. but it's becoming like.. orangy-red though. bright! :D anyways. one of my cousin's getting married in dec. and she got basically all female cousins to be the bridesmaid. i really dont feel like man. :/ have to go get nice dress and probably heels too. waste money for that once. :/ but owells. will see how things go. maybe can siam. :x saw niece and nephew too. sighs. and it just struck me. i'm an aunt already. :( but the nephew is cute. :D

arrgh. weekend always passes by so fast. i hardly had the time to enjoy yet. :( i need a new job. a job that i enjoy. so that i wont get this irritating illness called "monday blue" :/ and the thought of facing some shitfaces just made me feel worse. :(

i need a new job! but times are hard. stupid recession. jialat la. like that how! :(

arrgh. i need more entertainment. to free me from those stupid negative thoughs! :(

2008-10-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

heh

i'm so happy!!

finally got my pay liao.

the 1st thing i did on saturday was...

to go kimage dye hair!

AHAHAHAHAh

went to the kovan branch... initially want to find junior de... but end up is the senior stylist come to me... so paiseh ma.. so sui bian lo.. hahaa

but at least i din regret :D

dyed 2 tone.

got the ah lian red highlight!! YAY!!

cut my hair too. i like!

did double treatment... :D

heh. total bill was like... 200+ :/

is ex la. but i felt at least it's worth it.

the stylist is good la.. and i realised she's also the store manager. :D

hmm. applied for the member also. heee.

but now. i'm broke again... soon...

sighssss.

MONEY COME COME!!! :x

2008-10-23T20:38:00.003+08:00

i'm damn farking pissed.

i got backstabbed.

by some assholeshitheadbitch who, in order to save her own ass, push all the blame on me.

and great. i got the FIRST ever warning letter(in email) in my whole life, from that other shitheadidioticasshole. great. no wonder there's such phrases like 蛇鼠一窝, 狼狈为奸. Fits them like skin is to bones.

damn. fark it.

i'm pissed.

i'm telling myself once again. just 2 more months.

2008-10-20T11:08:00.003+08:00

arrgh.

i seriously hate my job now.

i hate that irritating boot-licker. that fly. that irritant, who always so happily split her jobs to the others.

wat's more, when she talks, i can fully understand the meaning of 口水多过茶. no doubt abt that.

i seriously detest PESTS.

damn.

i'm telling myself. just 3 more months.

office job is not for me.

office pest shall stay away from me!!! just *poof* and be gone!

sighs. :(

2008-10-16T15:34:00.006+08:00

heh.

been slping late late late recently.

my 黑眼圈 has been largely commented on. oh damn. i know it la ok. :( i know it's super dark. and i kind of look super ghostly. and i certainly know how horrible i look... but but.. not as if i want it right.. :( sighs. i really wonder why some ppl can slp super late but yet their complexion and all still seems so flawless. ~.~

work has been full of shit. :/ super many crap $%$#! "pop" out from nowhere, just all of a sudden. sighs. i just wan to be a small fry in the office leh.. no trouble pls. i'm a peace lover!! :D hmm. colleague commented that i'm full of crap. got meh? o.o? i'm just being myself. :x HAAHAH but owells. we do need some form of entertainment in the boring office okays.. since there is NO eyecandy to ogle at... we gotta self entertain right. :x

Okays la. shall end here for the day. i certainly DO NOT wan to be caught blogging at work by some irritating "fly" :D

2008-10-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

so emo.

damn.

2008-10-11T11:36:00.005+08:00

heh. okays.

it's another weekend once again. :D

went for Jack's bbq ystd. went down to eunos area, then rachel drove over to fetch siew ling and me and etc. heh. i admit. i was really kind of doubting her driving skills when she said she's driving!! :x but.. it's good that there's someone to fetch. coz i dont really know how to get there... and to get there by bus or wat.. probably gotta go thru that underground passageway. damn scary. :s have heard too many many stories. :s

heh. well. was quite boring over there. coz those whom i went with, went in pairs. and were behaving rather lovingly in a way. which makes me feel so damn extra. :( hmm. the food was quite alright.. din eat much though. coz it was kind of dark.. and i could hardly see wat's on the plate and wasnt really that hungry too. saw caiwen, hisako, chong, lili.. etc. din get to see the rest of MM peeps.. last min all pangseh-ed. damn. :/

anyways.. cabbed back at abt.. 12+ was somehow feeling super tired. x.x i dont know why. heh.

it's saturday today. hopefully it's not gonna be another boring day. :D

to gf: you are so dumb. be firm. and don't tear.

2008-10-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

work has been so so so stressful!! T.T

sighs. perhaps it's due to the financial yr closing, many shits just seem to crop up these few weeks. :( i go to work feeling super stressful like everyday!! ARRGHH. i thought admin is supposed to be the most relax job around!!! :/ datelines are fine.. but i seriously hate DEADlines. x.x i get bombarded with stupid emails everyday... and some idiots just dont seem to reply the urgent mails that had been send so many many times. seriously hate it. hur. i think. i might wan to just go look for a new job next yr. prolly get something more interesting, and less desk-bound. :/

been some time since i last blogged.. let's see wat have i done.. ehh. watched "Eagle Eye". not a bad movie i would say. Heh. i like the female lead. the same one in "Made of Honour" hee. loves loves! ^^ Argh. i so so so wanted to watch "the House Bunny". sighs. i know it might be some stupid show and all.. but i WAN TO WATCH! been anticipating since i dunno when.. then end up nobody is willing to watch with me. damn sad. :( Hmm.. "connected" seems nice also.. heard it's not bad.. and moreover, i didn't watch the angmoh version. heee. recently like so many movies again.. and not forgetting there's "burn after reading" by brad pitt and george clooney.. and i-forgot-whos. read the storyline.. seems quite stupid.. but still.. there's a strong cast. should be quite not bad also i suppose?

Hmm. jack's (from MM) bday tmr. going for the bbq. heh. i just hope i'll not be too lazy to get there.. :/got a present.. probably find a few peeps to share the cost with me. otherwise i'll die man. gonna eat grass by mid of this month. :(

there's this clinique perfume that i super like.. it sort of like attracted me immediately. the scent. is exactly wat i like. ‹3 heh. have updated my wishlist. hopefully someone would be nice enough to get it for me! HAHAHAAH. ;p

was at bugis, then went over to PS with GF. to get her stuffs. and also mine. spent horribly today. :( just checked my acc balance. a pathetic three hundred and eighty. of which... 225 will be deducted in mid Oct for insurance stuffs. damn. how to survive???!! T.T i want to strike 4D!!! :x heh. dream on man. :/

ok. shall end off here today. *poofs-

to gf: whatever you choose, whatever you decide, whatever your decision is. You still have me! :D. We'll still hold hands when we go out! :D (ok. that's random). loves loves! :D dont be too sad. dont be too emo. :)

2008-10-03T21:20:00.009+08:00

damn.

sometimes. i seriously feel such a loner.

stranded at home on a friday night. alone. even my parents have their own activities.

How Great.

there's nobody to talk to.

there's nobody to hang out with.

ppl are busy with their personal life.

busy playing games...

then what abt me?

i'm like at home stoning infront of the com.

actually hoping that my hp would miraculously ring

or at the very least, a sms to keep me occupied for like 2mins?

whereby someone would actually ask me over.

but seriously.

it's like wishful thinking.

it's quiet, even over on the msn now.

ppl are probably too preoccupied with their own stuffs.

i begin to wonder, have i ever crossed their minds?

even if so, would i be that substitution?

whereby coz other alternatives are not available, therefore what's left is me?

i seriously dont know.

maybe it's due to that stupid once-a-month-irritant.

i'm getting very emo.

and that's certainly not very good.

i hate that feeling of loneliness.

did it ever crossed your mind, how lonely i've been feeling?

i doubt so.

even if it did, perhaps it didn't matter.

i'm tired. i'm going to slp.

sweet dreams for me pls. hopefully nv waking up from it.

i'm afraid of those nightmares coming true...

2008-09-28T15:05:00.006+08:00

it's weird...

how i never seem to learn my lesson the previous time...

damn.

2008-09-22T22:49:00.003+08:00

damn sad.

i dont know if wat i did was right.

i dont know if my words were too harsh.

i dont know wat will the outcome be...

i just hope things could be better...

2008-09-18T19:04:00.003+08:00

arrgh. i hate it. simply hate it when things just goes the wrong way... when everything just turn out so wrong... when i feel so unappreciated... i dont know why, i feel just like an "option", just one of the many choices... but never the priority... i dont know. i cant read minds. i'm looking at things form my point of view, based on wat i feel. correct me if i'm wrong... i hoped i'm just being overly sensitive.

i hate to have my feelings ignore, having "nobody ask you to feel that way" being shoot at me. seriously. i need someone to consider how i feel. to spare a thought on how i'm feeling... and not just take for granted on how i should feel. i need more care, i need more concern, i need to feel more importance. i need more love.. and i need alot more assurance. i'm being greedy perhaps, demanding even. but

i tried pretending everything is fine, tried to hide those feelings, tried to make myself feel better by not thinking abt those shit stuffs. i tried finding excuses. i tried to come up for logical explanations. but fuck. it's hard.

and i'm tired. of repeating the same old stuffs over again and nothing just seem to go in. i know there had been changes made, there have been improvements but just please be more thoughtful with the words..

afterall, words can be the most lethal weapon. that can spoil, or build any relationships.

2008-09-13T01:29:00.003+08:00

& the tears flowed uncontrollably again...

sometimes i wonder,

would anybody even realise my departure, if i were to just die in an accident or whatsoever tmr... ha. i doubt so.

for i feel so insignificant. i dont even have a idea as to the position i hold, that level of importance to anybody, if any.

i'm just a passer-by perhaps.

只是生命中的过路客. . .

2008-09-08T08:42:00.012+08:00

The sweetest love story.

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised.
They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. 'would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.
'Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby? He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'. While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched..
That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home. Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said:
'My dearest,Please forgive me, forgive my whole-life lie. This was the only lie I said to you - the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you.. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life.
If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again.'Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee?
It's sweet. She replied.

Love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but to understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but to hold on.

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'

Owells. be realistic.. i dont think there'll be any guy who's this sweet... ok. maybe there's those one in a million... and i've definitely not met any of them yet... :/ but then again.. ppl change... they can be sweet in the beginning.. but after some time.. things will definitely be different.

sighs. why do ppl seem to always change for the worse... sometimes.. without realising it themselves. :( it sucks! x.x

2008-09-07T22:52:00.003+08:00

Sunday again. sighs. tmr have to go back work. sucks. :( weekends always seems to pass so damn fast... :/

time really seems to fly pass... been working full time for... 3mths+. heh. from the initial i-hate-it-so-much-that-i-can't-wait-to-quit-the-job to now... the i-still-can-bear-with-it. woah. that's really sort of improvement. heh. but somehow. office job really not meant for me. :/ i need communication with ppl, not facing the dead com for 8hrs a day! omg. okays. i'm complaining. like again! x.x sadness. can't work with GF... work will definitely be more fun with GF around. :( sighs. T.T i wonder how long i can tahan this job. someone at work has been getting on my nerves like every week. keep throwing me last min shits.. damn. =.=

it's damn pissing how things always seems to refuse to go my way.. the way i would like it to be... it's irritating how sometimes i try to make things right, but yet it turns out wrong.. and it ended with me getting blame? owells. sometimes. i feel.. my life's seriously rather aimless. i mean. i just live from day to day. i dont even have a clue as to wat i wan to achieve in the near future... i feel kind of lost actually... :/ there's a chinese saying that says... 人生我材必有用 (something like that), but wat abt me? 用在何处? :( seriously i dont know man. sometimes... i feel that perhaps my kind of thinking is too naive.. haa. grow up! :/

Gf's blog song is damn nice. 不够成熟 by BY2. damn nice. kept listening to it since noon. heh. lyrics' meaningful too. ~.~ heh. how come sad songs are mostly the nicest... :/

Heh. i need some K-sessions (after i recover my voice :( ). :D sing my hearts out... yay!

2008-09-06T23:32:00.003+08:00

oh. remembered something. haha.

Stanley has left MM. sadness. :( he's really.. the best manager ever. sighs. owells. leaving MM would be better for him i suppose. can't expect him to "bury" in there the whole of his life right. :/ hmm. now with the Japan-imports. there are more politics. like. damn. it used to be such fun environment. but now, you just have to read the scheming hidden meaning in their words. seriously f-up. no wonder nowadays the staff turnover so fast. bth. i missed the old MM. :( ohh, heard that they might open another branch soon.. i wonder who will be in charge... :/

and so... went for Stanley's farewell. Big boss specially flew in from Japan to bid him farewell.. heh. so many ex-MM staff went. ahhaha! and we camwhored!! Lol. but i dont have the pictures though.. it's in some others cameras. will see if i can get. heee. :D was having supper.. and they ordered many many beer (which i seriously dislike). and they forced everyone to tah like 1 mug at least. =.= eeeek! :/ but owells. all our expenses paid for. hahaha. no complains la. ;p

hmmm. probably gotta go back "play" this friday as well. sian-ness. :( weekends are always super busy! x.x

2008-09-06T02:11:00.006+08:00

heh. alrights. it's the beginning of a new month! heh. it's gonna be an eventlyful Sep i guess. got so many things going on... which means.. there's gonna be a big hole in my pocket again. owells. wat's new?

hmm. haven really been updating.. kind of forgotten wat really happen the past week. Lol. and yes.. i'm getting more and more forgetful. :/

heh. anyways. i shall just begin with wat i did today. :/ met up with GF after work.. went amk. heh. bought some necessities. ;p spent more money!! :( had dinner at the big big S-11. hee. :D finally satisfied my craving for Mutabak! :D loves! it's seriously not bad la, at least it's crispym and not very oily. ^^ then after that went eyebrow threading. it's kind of horrible this time.. =.= the nice lady boss wasn't around... then the person who served me was this impatient and rather rude woman. now my brows seems uneven la! damn pissed. T.T heng i got fringe to cover up! :x ohohoh! and GF helped me collected the contact lens that i ordered since i-dunno-when. heh. will try it on tmr. hopefully it looks fine. :D

hmm. after that went to play pool. heh. many many ppl. and it kind of sucks, coz i don't play well... :/ ok. to be honest, i think i play badly la. x.x so spent abt 2.5 close to 3 hrs there.. and it's only 18 bucks, considered quite cheap for a weekend night i suppose? then cabbed home with GF. tired. x.x

sighs. i have yet to watch Wall-E!! sadness!! :( I NEED ENTERTAINMENT!!! :(

anyways. saw this on GF's bloggie. thought it's kind of meaningful.. so i decided to copy and paste!!! :x

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to "suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation."A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call.She answered, 'Public Utilities Board.'There was silence.She repeated, 'PUB.' There was still no answer.When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice,'Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is.'Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just 'hello' instead of 'PUB'.

NO POINTING FINGERS. A man asked his father-in-law, 'Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?'The father-in-law answered in a smile, 'Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you.'We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at.This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested 'I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one.'The SDU officer said, 'Your requirements, please.''Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest.'The officer listened carefully and replied, 'I understand you need television.'There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

NO OVERPOWERING. Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much.People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character.' It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

RIGHT SPEECH. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that'A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation.'Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, 'Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school.'On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, 'Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker.' She answered,'You should appreciate that you married me. Other wise, he will be the millionaire and not you.'Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

PERSONAL PERCEPTION. Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison.A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?'Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them.Later, an old man saw it and commented, 'The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?'Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman.'The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey.Then, they met a young man. He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you.'Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a nar row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river.You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

BE PATIENT. This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, 'Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck.' Then he asked, 'but when are my fingers going to grow back?' The father went home & committed suicide.Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

owells. i guess.. i will just have to "see open" abit more...

2008-08-28T20:11:00.004+08:00

ahems. been some time since i last blogged. haaa.

okays. i'm back at MM. Lol. as a part-time part-timer. heh. mostly on fridays and sunday ba. heh. that means more more $$ :D owells. it's fun to go back "play" once in awhile. though it's damn tiring. x.x last friday went back work for 4.5 hrs. i nearly died man. my feet ached for 2 days la! x.x and i bought a pair of new shoes too. :D hehehehe. loves loves ‹3 ^^... though it hurts my feet. T.T

hmmm. finally got my pay. damn sad. i count here count there. not enough to cover all the costs sia. shit man. :( somemore this month got extra expenditure.. special events like mooncake festival.. :/ bought this chocolate mooncake, from marriot hotel. heee. ATP tenants got 25% discounts. ;p but still.. it's ex la. Marriot hotel leh. :/ then think on the 7th need go down collect. heh. but i think the mooncake seriously not bad. :D tried the samples. chocolate was good. durian was great. heee. :D and got many many nice ones also!! ^^

hmmm. i wan watch many many movies... 4bia, Wall-E... etc. BRING ME GO WATCH MOVIE PLS!! :x

heh. guess nth much for now. byebyes.

2008-08-17T11:49:00.003+08:00

woah. it's sunday. how fast. :/ gotta work tmr again.. hmmm. heard from some ppl that if Singapore clinch a medal in the Olympics, it will be 1 day off for all? owells. dunno whether it's true... but i certainly wont mind that. :D afterall, who'll say no to a paid day off? ;p

heh. going back MM to help out later. i'm like so hardworking man.. going to work on a sunday evening.. :/ hmmm. been sitting for long hrs in the office.. wonder if i can withstand the "hardship" of standing for like.. 3 hrs later. :s jialat. hmm.. but i think.. i'll be like.. going back to play than work la.. hahaha. probably some gossip sessions. ;p hopefully the dinner crowd stays clear of bugis today. :x stay home watch table tennis!! ;p

damn bored. woke up at 8 today. had breakfast with mama.. and now. i'm rotting in front of the stupid com.. with the stupid singnet that keeps dc-ing... damn pissing. :( hur. feel like playing back WOW... anybody wan play with me? :x

2008-08-14T21:54:00.006+08:00

yay! thursday! like finally... can't wait for weekends to arrive soon.. :/

hmmm. just got confirmed for work today.. owells.. i wonder how long will i be working there.. x.x they say will have salary adjustment after confirmation. yay!! hopefully it's satisfactory. :s

was not really in a good mood ystd.. made some stupid mistake at work. kena scolding... but owells. my fault wat. who to blame. :( but still, damn sad. :/ i'll just have to be more careful with my stuffs from now on lo.. :(

heh. after "burying" myself in the office for 3 mths.. i'm seriously missing MM. the kind of atmosphere, the colleagues... and that sense of satisfaction.. it's really.. irreplaceable. :/ sighhs. it's weird how you miss something so much... and yet when you're at it.. you simply dread it. :/ bahh. wat am i saying man. :/

Boring. :/

boredom is attempting to kill me almost everynight. help pls. :(

2008-08-11T11:49:00.003+08:00

okays. i'm bored. :/

off today... substitute holiday as 9 Aug falls on saturday.. so they gave us 1 day off on monday! yipeee! but owells. it's just another boring day.. staying home and rot.. probably get some rest.. haaa. been staying out later these days. :x my mum's getting mad. x.x

anyways.. watched Pathology over the weekend.. hmm think it's only shown in cathay cineplex.. it's was... supposedly R21 but.. owells. they nv check IC ;p. watched.. and it was a little gory... sadistic... and.. chim. coz they had alot of all this watsoever medical/chemical terms.. :/ but overall.. it's a little.. wtftmdbbq. :/

heh. i'm counting down to payday. am damn broke already. :( probably gonna stay home every weekday... :/ somemore.. i predict that i'll have to spend alot for the coming months... :s cui-ness. x.x

i need money!!! T.T

2008-08-09T12:02:00.010+08:00

Alrights.. it seems like a rather long time since i last update my blog "decently".. owells. been spending money like water.. (like the running tap turned to the max). :/ am really extremely broke. omg. it's like.. i can now "confidently" declare that... i won't be able to survive till end of month on myself.. :/ probably have to take up a loan... (thanks mama and bro). :p

hmm. i'm not happy abt spending so much this month.. but.. honestly.. i think i generally did enjoyed myself? hahaa. managed to hang out with the old MM's ex colleagues.. the usual drinking and k-ing session in 酒潭淋, which is like a "third home" to many of MM's 酒鬼. :x

haaa. took some pics with them too. :D it was sort of a camwhoring session. ;p owells.. dont have all the pics though.. might upload if i can get my hands on those other pics... will post up if only they are deceiving enough.. which i guess.. not. Lol. :/ Was kind of.. seh-ish.. guess i drink too fast.. :s was like.. blur-er than the previous times... and and and. . i was a little sad.. coz i only get to sing like 1/2 a song. sadness man... :( but owells.. at least i got good company. :D

so here are the pics.. which looked deceiving and decent enough to be posted.. haaa. :/

that's me and cass~ :D

Her shoulders are super nice to lean on... so comfy... ^^

That's the "ah-bengish" francis...

We got this 2 free Asahi tower... i have no idea is who treat de.. but owells. no likes beer. x.x haaa. they opened 2 (or 3) bottles of martell too. heh. shared the cost. :/

That's the crowd we have at our table.. like.. 10+ of us? heh. :)

and there we have... "singer" Stanley entertaining the crowd with his voice... ok.. must admit.. he can really sing well. ;p

and and and.. as usual... Mr Meng Swee got drunk again... hahaand he puked... ~.~ eeeuww!!

Hehs.. hanged out with GF ystd... after work.. :/ TGIF! ;p anyways.. it was 08.08.08 .. i rmbed exactly 1 yr ago... was also the 1st time she dragged me to clubbing.. Lol. how coincidentally.. we almost ended up clubbing ystd too! hahaa. i seriously no likes clubbing can! squeezy, smelly, sweaty, stuffy. sucks lor! :/ T.T

but well, we ended up going ktv (partyworld) instead. haaaa. till abt.. 5+ then reach home. ~.~ damn seh-ness. x.x super tired. and my 黑眼圈 super extreme... ~.~ bth! x.x

so here's some camwhoring before meeting up with GF's frens for ktv session. heee. :D

We wore similar outfits! :D

ooooh?

I think we look like a couple!! ;p with matching clothes, similar belts and cardigans... and even the same phone model!! ^^　

heee. GF's so fair.. :( *jealous* i iiShh wAnNs tO lOooK fAiiR tOoo lUhhss. :x

goodness. me is hate twitness. :/ so random! haaa. :x

Heh. okays la. lazy already. shall update again... till then, ciaos! ^^

2008-08-05T21:04:00.001+08:00

i made a promise.

kill me, if i dont keep to it.

2008-07-24T21:53:00.006+08:00

ok. i'm boredddd....

i feel like...

taking unpaid leave from work on next monday...

quitting my boring/repetitive/routine-d/overly administrative/unchallenging/100% desk-bound job...

studying again...

just so suddenly.. i missed school again...

probably the mundane work stuffs made me realised... school's indeed a better place...

i missed the times we would joke around in class...

i missed the times the guys always throw stupid/dumb/funny/weird questions at the lecturers...

i missed the times we go for lunchies together in north canteen, mac, the used-to-be food junction and now KouFu, the splash and decker and once in a while.. the south canteen... the indulgence in Pizza Hut's express $7 lunchie at amk central once in a blue moon..

i missed the times we go toilet together and come up with those nonsense abt the once-upon-a-time rumoured to be haunted places in school... and get scared when the toilet bowl starts flushing on it's own... ~.~

i missed the times we acted dumb, suan-ed each other, gossiping abt the gays, the lesbians, the weirdos, the not very well-liked in class... haha.

sighhs. i wan to go back to school... :(

2008-07-23T15:31:00.002+08:00

What Lim JiaQi Jeannette Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.

You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.

You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-07-19T10:43:00.005+08:00

i'm... tired.

hmmm. used to like this song alot... used to always sing this song at ktv and all.. now looking at the lyrics.. there seems to be a sense of ~~familarity~~... :/

假裝

呼吸著一種孤獨的味道　心跳在你沉默以後慢慢地被淡忘掉
我笑了笑　反正你看不到　我要的幸福　遺落在你懷抱

＃當愛失了焦　那些最初的美好　早被你擱在一角
　街上擁擠人潮　走著看著都是催眠符號
　記憶停不了　穿過讀你的心跳　穿過想你的味道　我只想不被打擾

假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒
去相信你的擁抱　一直會讓我依靠
繼續等待　還心甘情願地　不想逃


假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒
去相信你的擁抱　一直會讓我依靠
繼續等待　心甘情願不想逃

＊假裝多好　依然是　依然是　曖昧的 tone 調
　一個人無理取鬧　兩人世界的煎熬
　我被自己　困在自己設下的　圈套

像是駝鳥　相信時間是唯一解藥　視而不見　傻到了無可救藥
其實早明瞭　你的愛已隨風飄　想要找　再也找不到

假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒
去相信你的擁抱　還心甘情願地　不想逃

假裝自己　已解開冰冷的手銬……

2008-07-14T20:42:00.003+08:00

just when i need someone around...

i realised.

i'm all alone.

2008-07-14T19:57:00.003+08:00

hmm. alrights. i'm really not happy right now. you may think i'm just emo-ing/moody/being unreasonable.. etc but no. i know it myself. like hello. it's not that time of the month 24/7 okays.

it's just.. sometimes.. i tend to think... i'll ponder.. i'll consider... then i just get so affected. i just need to get those stuffs off my chest, before i go crazy. and it's really unbearable now. i say wat i feel honestly.. but wat do i get. cold shoulder?

like seriously.. communication is seriously lacking... just think... when was tha last time we really talked abt ourselves. be it the past, the hopes, the needs and wat we are really feeling deep down inside? Hey. i can't read minds (i wished i could).. there's gotta be communication... maybe i'm too sensitive sometimes.. but i sensed that things changed.. attitude etc. well.. ppl always say actions speaks louder than words. but. when i can't see the actions at all, due to all that distance, the words can give me the assurance that i need. is it really too much to ask of? to express thru words? be it sms, thru phone etc. or even msn!

throughout all theses times, i sensed that change. the things that became lesser, and the distance which increases as time goes by.

i hate to take initiative all the time...

and

i hate this ~~familar~~ feeling...

i'm really getting scared...

2008-07-12T12:42:00.004+08:00

wheee~!! okays. been damn long since i last blogged.. well.. i was busy... and lazy.. haha. and nth much to blog abt also.. life's almost the same everyday.. wake up go work, come home laze around.., weekends go out, eat, movie, rotted and slacked.. hahaa. been the same almost everyweek.

hmm. watch many movies too... e.g. the incredible hulk, zohan, get smart etc etc. it's like.. 1 movie per week. hahaa. and there's so many more to catch.. like hellboy and red cliff! :D

anyways.. met up with gf on one of the weekdays.. initially wanted to like shop around de.. then end up.. something malu(quite la) happened to gf... so end up not much time left to shop.. but nvm.. we went to this shokudo japanese pizza and pasta thingy at cine lv 2 to indulge in the pastas. hahaa. ehh seriously. i think their food is really not bad. :D many yums yums. ^^ forgot to take any pics of the food though.. we were too eager to eat! :x hahaa. anyways.. we camwhore-d in the toilet of heeren... ~.~

Once again, this shows how deceiving pictures can be! hahaa! ;p

Here's another one. :/

and it's me!!! :D

Heh. been hanging out with LTMTT every weekend. and it's really so damn difficult to get him to take pictures with me lor. :( and he'd promised me neoprints since many weeks ago.. i have a strong feeling that promise gonna be broken. :( i hate it when ppl dont keep to their words.. eeeek! T.T

Finally managed to "force" him to take one picture with me... phew~

See! that's how far he can siam from my camera!!! :/

Hmm. i'm like stranded at home on a saturday.. boring... well.. he've got some company stuffs today. (damn irritating. cant they put it on some other days... =.=) but nvm. probably going out tmr.. heee. think should be bring him go try the pasta.. (he's a pasta freako) :x

heee~ nth much to blog abt already i guess... tata~

2008-06-21T10:16:00.006+08:00

Wheee~

i'm getting more and more lazy. heh.

owells. went phuket from 16 to 19. 4 days and 3 nights. considered quite long for a lil island ehh. but anyways.. it was quite ok la... but i din even go near the beach though. :/ reason being.. i was tagging along on mum's co.'s trip... so the ppl who went were like not very the young+ very the young.. and they'd rather shop than relax by the sea. so... ya. went shopping for the few days instead.

Heh. i spent my days eating and slping. Lol. the resort was nice. :D the room wasn't eerie at all (heng ah!).. the food was damn cheap and yummilicious!! In fact, the food was so cheap that the 16 of us had 3 huge lobsters, many crabs, 3 big i-dunno-wat-you-call-that fishes, sotongs, tom yam soup with many many seafood, seafood fried rice/hor fun/ Bee Hoon... and it adds up to only 4000baht(1000=abt SGD$41) in total! which is equivalent to only SGD$10 per pax! Damn cheap and nice la! and the service was great, though is was only a 煮炒-like stall set up along the
road, which is very common along the area.

Ohh. and and and.. They generally have cleaner toilets than singapore! like. really clean! the ones in MacDonalds are cleaner than Singapore MacDonald.. even the ones in the small eateries are sparkling clean! and the ppl are frenly too. :D Hmm. we wet to a few of the shopping centers there as welll.. things are cheap too... those normal heels costs only like 199baht.. which is like less than $8!! ^^ Heh.. it was really a pleasant trip that i enjoyed very much and i wouldn't mind going back again... despite the hotter-than-singapore weather.... :)

so... who wans to go phuket? or maybe some other parts of thailand? ;p

below are some snapshots during the trip. :)

Just an anyhow-taken picture of changi's terminal 3.. due to flight delay.. we had more time to idle around. :/

That's how our little cottage-style room looks like from outside. :D

A close up picture of the room. ^^

That's how it looks in the room.. well half of it. coz i forgot to take picture of the other half. :x

They have this girl playing this traditional instrument every evening at the lobby. :D

We took this bus to get to the town for shopping. the bus fare is equivalent to $1 regardless how long your journey is.. The bus is like wat we have in Singapore in the 60s/70s though. ;p

Took random pic of the roadside...

That's where the tsunami came from. heh. x.x

Dinner time! :D

Close up on the lobster! ;p

Heee. i think that's abt all i have. sighhs, time always seems to pass by faster when you are enjoying. :/

owells. i missed LTMTT so much. :( am glad can finally see him soon... but i dread the thought of having to go work. x.x

2008-06-10T19:41:00.003+08:00

woah. been long since i blogged. shall sort of summarise up the stuffs that i did. :/ heh. well.. was lazy... and busy la... :/ work work work. x.x hur. T.T anyways.. had Ajisen with LTMTT.. took some pics too. :D

The iced lemon tea

Heh. LTMTT and me had Volcano ramen. woots! This was mine, LTMTT's had alot more of that spicy stuffs. :S and his was really... OMGWTFTMDBBQ. :/ Too salty.. and way too too spicy. x.x

Heee. the side dishes... baby sotong and salad prawns. :D

and that's LTMTT... (acting shy, as usual. wat's new?) :p

Heh. been working these days.. mon to fri. 8.30 to 5.30.. with the frequent OTs... Well.. that's the working life... Life-less after work.. :/ Hmm... honestly.. the company is really not bad la.. with rather good benefits actually... but i'm still not sure if i really wan to stay on till i dunno when.. coz the job scope is like keep repeating.. doing the same things every days and weeks... owells... how long of this can i tahan? hmmm. we'll see. :/

Hmmm.. been drinking quite alot recently.. for the past 2 mths.. been drinking almost once every week. Heh. i'm growing more FAT FAT FAT!! x.x that's such a saddening news. :( Hur. But owells... drinking and singing.. is a form of relaxation... haaaa. from the can-never-be-finish workshits. T.T

Watched movies too. heee. :D Indiana Jones and KungFu Panda! owells.. Indiana Jones is okok la.. but KungFu Panda.. is GREAT! :D damn funny and entertaining. heee ^^ Love it. but it's the kind of i-watch-i-laugh-and i-forget kind of show.. but still it's a good laugh! :D

and and and.. i wan to watch Don't Mess With Zohan. heee. the trailer like nice. :D Adam Sandler is loves la! ^^v

anyways.. shall stop here for the time being i guess... can't think of wat to blog abt already... haaa.

Till then. Ciaos!

2008-05-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

oh fk. is it happening again?

well. i dont know.

i seriously dislike taking initiatives...

i dislike things being routine-ed...

i dislike how i seem to be the one always initiating the calls... it makes me feel as if i'm an irritant...

i detest to be the one attempting to start a conversation on the msn... as if i'm forcing you to say something when you have nothing to say to me at all...

i hate to feel like i'm forcing you to even talk to me!!

but yet.. it's all wat i'm feeling... somehow... like now?

i guess i must be too demanding... haaa. wat am i? i am nothing...

it's like in a cycle.. things that used to happen in the past, with the other ppl.. seems to be happening again.. how much confidence do i have to deal with it? seriously i do not know. is it going to sink down as one of the memories? seriously i dont wan that... and i'm afraid.. yet sometimes.. i can't help but have these thoughts.. because of the signs that i'm getting..

thoughts like these.. make me feel like just withdrawing myself.. if it's meant to be part of a memory.. why not leave it as a good one then?

well.. i dont know.

things like this happened so many times in the past.. i'm really unsure now.. even the slightest difficulty makes me feel like giving up.. for fear of getting hurt even more in the later part.. if things were to get worse...

i dont know.. why i'm feeling this way now.. perhaps i'm just emo.. perhaps i'm just afraid.. perhaps.. nobody understands and bothers at all...

perhaps you'll be much happier if i just leave you alone... ?

2008-05-26T20:45:00.003+08:00

Ok.. let's see wat i did over the weekends. hmm. i would say it's quite a fufilling i would say.. heh.. watched "Made of honour"(i cant rmb when exactly but i'll just include in this post anyhows :x) Hmm. quite like the show. NICE! :D and i thought the female lead was preeeetttyyy~ :D well.. in my opinion la. :)

Hmm.. went out in the noon with LTMTT.. we slacked and fooled around.. while waiting for Boon and gf and some supposedly i-dunno-whos.. well. it was planned that we will be going some ktv pub in boat quay.. then the i-dunno-whos pangseh-ed. like TMD. made me and LTMTT go from suntec.. to boat quay.. then back to bugis.. like damn irritating la. waste money waste time waste energy. TMD not-very-the-happy la. x.x

anyways.. met up with Boon and gf.. then went over to this Pub 33 amidst the many many steamboat "restaurants" at bugis area.. okays.. it was pretty alright.. and considered rather quiet for a saturday night.. :/ anyways. there was this grp of obviously very the <18>piitch from that grp of <18 y.o just came over and took one of the mic away.. i was like.. frowning with bubbled thoughts that says "wat the fuck" rising above me. okays. i was like pissed okays.. but after awhile. i felt alot better.. coz she was indeed making a foo0l of herself.. 1stly with her drunkard lian-ish shtified even-herself-also-apparently-dunno-wat-she-doing kind of behaviour.. and of course.. her disastrous singing. Heh. i definitely sing much better la!!

was really happy happy happy that other tables applauded for me as i finished singing.. not only once.. but like.. twice at least..? . :D damn HAPPY! ^^ voice was in good good condition that day. ^^v heee! seriously.. i love singing. ^^ and i like that sense of how ppl approve of my singing.. well.. not trying to show off or wat.. but it really feels good when ppl agrees that you are doing a great job at wat you yourself enjoy doing. :)

heh. rotted at work again today.. went for this pre-employment checkup.. ok.. it's suppose to be pre-employment.. but in this case.. it's not. :x anyways.. gotta go orchard for xray screening this saturday.. like.. before 12pm? damn sian can. x.x so early. :( somemore nobody pei me!!! T.T hur. x.x :/

okays.. guess i shall stop here.. mass blogged the events during the period which i seemed to have gone mia-ed from blog. heh. well.. i was just plan lazy okays.. :x will try to update la.. but then again.. it depends.. on whether anybody reads. :/

2008-05-24T10:22:00.002+08:00

Hmm. okays.. went for grad ceremony on 23rd May friday.. hee. it was quite ok actually.. seeing all my classmates whom i've not seen for abt.. 3mths? HAA. well. many of which are working already.. makes me feel like.. i really grow up.. or rather we. :/

owells. reached sch at 8.45 with mama.. like. damn early can. x.x anyways.. initially wanted to have breakfast with mama 1st.. but bus was slow.. so end up din have time.. so went to report for the ceremony instead.. while mama went to eat alone. heh. while we were preparing for our 10secs on-stage stint(basically walk over to the G-O-H, shake his hand, take pictures, walk down the stage).. mum called.. and said dad came. heh. :D while.. he initially couldn't make it due to work purpose. :x

but anyways.. had mass photo taking with MK0503-ians.. took pictures with dad and mum too. :D afterwhich.. went for this lunch reception prepared especially for the class of 2008 and parents! heh. there's like.. so much food la.. really is cannot finish that kind lor.. and the person kept refilling.. ~.~ i wonder wat's gonna happen to the leftovers. :/

heh. came home.. and took a nap. heh. i seriously love my bed okays... :x

2008-05-21T20:20:00.004+08:00

Okays.. 1st day was.. owells. boring..? had this staff introduction.. that involves the whole office!! ermm. you might think it's perfectly normal to intro new staff to everybody in the office.. but.. i'm working in an MNC... whereby in this office... there's 100+++++ staff in total. imagine going around their tables.. having shake so many hands... trying my best to match names with their faces. oh gosh. it was.. very not-the-pleasant... it was.. awkward.. weird.. and.. strange la. x.x

anyways. after the horrendous experience at staff introduction by the frenly ppl from the cannot-be-offended HR dept.. i went for this software training.. well.. there are undergoing major software change.. whereby the sftware wil officially be used from 6june onwards.. thus.. for this period till then.. i have pretty much.. nothing to do. reason being.. they cant access new software yet.. and there's no point in them teaching me old software crap.. so.. ya. i'll be rotting in office from the 1st day of work.. all the way till 6june. :/ thank goodness working hrs is only from 8.30 till 5.30. :/

i wonder how long i can tahan in the office... :/

2008-05-20T20:13:00.003+08:00

Thanks GF and her bf (seng) for the oreo cheesecake.. which seng took the trouble to "beg" for it from starbucks.. as it was past their operation hrs.. Thanks! really appreciate it. :)) GF and her bf even delayed the timing after our movie finish.. so as to surprise me after 12am. heh. :D

anyways. watched "accuracy of death" with GF, her bf and LTMTT. the movie was not bad.. Takeshi Kaneshiro is cute (wat's new. :x).. hmm. overall.. i would say that the show's worth watching.. as there were some interesting moments.. and some parts of it was rather meaningful.. something like.. live with a goal, something you wan to achieve.. coz if you dont have anything you wan to achieve, what's the point of being alive then?

owells. kind of slacked at home on my birthday.. but i enjoyed.. because of you. :)

2008-05-19T10:09:00.003+08:00

Hmmm. finally.. the official last day of work at Ma Maison.... a place i call "My Home" for the past 3 years+. Owells. indeed i feel 不舍得... :/ anyways. took some pics.. for remembrance sake. Hah. :/ heh. but i believe i'll still be going back again.. for some meals and gatherings probably? :) I'm gonna miss Ma Maison's food. :s and of course not forgetting... the nice ppl. :(

Just some random pics...

Heh. anyways. went drinking again with Ma Maison ppl.. heh. it was sort of like a bday thingy for me.. and they got me presents too! THANKS! ‹3 loads! really didn't expect that much.. thought it was just some casual gathering. heh. :D Hur. i kena sabo-ed to drink many many times.. ~.~ and i sang my hearts out. and i managed to make it back home with a sober mind! HAHAHA. yay! :x

Oh. am meeting some of them this thursday. heh. for a mini gathering.. been long sicne the few of us sat down and dine together since they all quitted already too.. it's Ma Maison! HAHAa. :D

hmmm. it's grandpa's bday today.. tmr's mine.. heee. dearest AMB(ok. i shall refer to him as LTMTT from now on) took off especially for me. ^^ ‹3 thanks. :)) guess i'm probably gonna meet him after grandpa's birthday... and probably gonna stay out late like.. 3rd day in a roll?! my mum's gonna be mad. :x hahaa. but well.. i guess it's ok once in a while...? coz it's my bday okays! once a yr! and since i'm starting full time job soon.. i'll probably not have so much time of my own anymore. :( and that means lesser time to disturb LTMTT. :(

i miss ‹3

:/

2008-05-15T20:11:00.001+08:00

yay! got a job le. at toshiba. heh. good offering i would say. good luck to me!!! ^^

probably starting work soon though.. perhaps on the 20th. yay! looking forward. :))

2008-05-14T10:07:00.003+08:00

okays. went for the interview for Toshiba Electronics (sales and marketing administrator) ystd. they changed the timing to 9.45am.. which is like so early ~.~ and the distance was like so damn far... took me a whole 1hr 20min by bus.. and another 10min walking into that 鸟不生蛋 place. :/

anyways. the interview went pretty alright i guess. was asked to go for 2nd interview on Thursday.. which is tmr.. at an even earlier time.. 9.15am!! x.x tmd. bus confirm very crowded. T.T anyways. hopefully will get selected.. and hopefully the salary they offer is within my expectations. :/

hur. i seriously need a job like SOON! it's not even mid-month and i'm already broke.. like. damn broke! x.x i gotta beg from my mum already okay. :( x.x

hmmm. might be going Zoo this weekend. hahaha. shall see how. not confirm. coz like got so many things on. :/ saturday need to go back school to pay and collect the graduation gown. x.x tmd. damn ex. like $50... ok la. 1/2 of it is refundable. :/ owells.. it's been worn by idunnohowmanyotherppl. x.x

alrights. nothing much to update abt... BYEBYE!!

2008-05-11T14:50:00.014+08:00

Alrights. finally got to hang out with GF ystd (saturday). heh. like really FINALLY! :/ hmm. well. met up with Amb and his fren first. heee. went to ma maison to eat... forgot to take picture though. :x yum yum. cheese fritters is ‹3 man. simply yummilicious. ^^

after lunch/dinner. went over to The Cathay to collect the tickets. lucky for us, we booked the tickets before hand, as it was already sold out by the time we reach Cathay. heh. then GF and her bf came afterwards as they got work. :/ watched "What Happens in Vegas" together.

the show was nice. :D worth a watch. heee. seriously alot of nice shows recently. ^^ after movie was only abt 9+. still early. so we all decided to go chill at some place. initially suggested Mr Bean's cafe (yes. the one with the very the unpleasant service).. but as we were approaching that area, we decided to just go into this ktv called Plasma KTV Pub. Hmmm. the owner(i think) doubt our age sia. Lol. heh. she was like saying we(GF and i, i suppose.) look machiam like 16year olds only. She checked our ICs anyways. ;p

Heh. ordered 3 jugs of beer for only $55. hur. seriously dont like tiger la. not nice. :( strongly prefers chivas or martell. owells. they are much much more expensive than beer la. x.x anyways. sang some songs and took some pictures. :)

That's GF and her bf. and the 3 jugs of beer. :/

That's Amb and me. :D

Heh. us again. ;p

Hmm. played some dice game too. oh. and dai dee too. :D

Ohh. and there was this Malay wedding at my void deck today. well. i'm fine with Malay weddings, the loud singings etc. but this. was really horrible. i mean. it's really one of the worse which i sort of curse and swear at. x.x

See the crowd..? well. i'm fine with it really. afterall. weddings.. the more ppl the merrier right. :/ wat i can't stand.. is wat's below...

You see... the motorbikes... machiam like a parade can!!

There's more!!

Just take a look man.. there are at least 30+ of them in total la. with some parking on the other side and the pathment as well.

and and and. i think.. they all just decided to come at the same time, like.. 30++ bikes.. vrooming into the carpark... and that's not all. they so PURPOSELY made those irritating loud vrooming engine sound.. all of them.. not only in the carpark.. but at the void deck as well. just imagine the noise pollution level. it's GODLY. (GOD DAMN NOISY!)

these ppl.. it's like can't they just spare a thought for the residence? like.. hello. of course i have no problems with ppl riding bikes to attend wedding.. parking the bikes at the void deck as long as it's in a orderly manner and not getting in the way, causing inconvenience.. but hey. please. nobody likes hearing the sound of the f-king noisy vrooms like so early in the afternoon. especially when the noise is caused purposely... with the intention of showing off or watsoever shit i dunno and i dont care either. it's like now. i finally can understand why there are some ppl who detest Malays so much. not trying to be racist here.. but. owells, it's a fact that these grp of them at the void deck deserves nothing more, nothing better than scoldings, cursing and swearing.

Heh. okays. i shall not rant anymore. getting lazy already. :/

2008-05-07T08:57:00.003+08:00

whee~ it's tuesday!! owells. wat's so exciting abt tuesday. :/

anyways. rotted my weekends away. stayed home on friday, saturday and sunday. omg. i can't believe it. x.x heh. went drinking at 酒潭淋 (ktv pub) with Ma maison people on monday night. abt 9 of us at least? :D heh. was thinking that there cant be alot of ppl on a monday night la.. afterall, it's not a weekend also. :/ but i was so wrong man! the whole place is like filled with so many ppl. so so so noisy la. :x lucky for us. we reserved the sofa seats in advance. heh.

we opened 3 bottles in total. and i think.. we finished all? heh. a few got drunk. and i was abit giddy already. Lol. i seldom drink la... and i think i drank the most and fastest this time round as compared to previous times. felt like my vision going merry-go-round. ~.~ we were there till abt 3+. Then cabbed home with jack. reached home. bathe and lied on my bed. but somehow. i just cant seem to slp. x.x it's already abt 4+, 5.. and i have to wake at 9 for work la. x.x

but luckily. i managed to get up on time.. and felt quite awake in fact. wasn't in that sleepy mode at all. :/ weird. but anyways. went to work. and got locked outside workplace. Yamamoto was late. owells. pardon him, as he drank alot. heh. he finally came to open the door at 11+ :/ rushed with the opening stuffs. etc.

and and and. i received a call from agency. got shortlisted for a job interview. heh. but it's kind of far though. at some alexandra technopark. :/ i seriously got no idea how to get there. it's far but.. somehow i think the job is not a bad catch. heh. ^^ hopefully i'll get the job. getting nervous abt the interview already. x.x

2008-05-03T14:07:00.005+08:00

boredom.

i should've work instead.

damn.

now i'm stranded at home on a weekend afternoon.

tmd bored.

2008-05-02T09:47:00.006+08:00

yay!! i finally got my salary. though it was a miserable amount... sighs. it was much lesser than expected la. :( SAD. no thanks to the cpf contributions man. i really wonder why part time also need to put in cpf. x.x it's depriving me of my money... now. :/

anyways. got the cheques on... wednesday and went to cash out immediately. heh. as i'm sucha nice person. i helped my colleagues cash out too. 8 in total. :/

hee. public holiday(labour day) ystd. went out with amb. ^^ 1st. we head down to cine for the sushi buffet. BUT! to our horror! the queue was like damn long la. x.x but we queued anyways. coz i was having that craving for some sashimis and sushis. heh. been some time since i last had them. and so we waited for 1 whole hour before we got a table. x.x we were famished!... okays. i was famished. he was hungry. :/

well. we didn't eat alot.. did we..? (ps: they combine 5 plates of sashimi into 1 yellow plate)

and there he was, playing with his tongue stud. :/

then. we went bugis street! shopping time!! :D heh. walked around bugis street and this bag just caught my eye. ^^ but it's a casual slingbag though. wat i need more is a more formal kind of shoulder/hand bag. but nevertheless. i decided to buy it! coz i know if i don't. the possibility that i will regret is abt 85% .. and i will probably keep niam abt it. x.x Oh. saw some nice clothes too.. but someone don't allow me to see/touch/buy. :( he just keeps saying NO! x.x

That sling bag. :D

walked over to suntec around 7pm. bought tickets for "Ironman" and went around shopping... again. :x and this time.. another bag caught my eye. heh. :D a dark brown-like shoulder bag. :D it was the last piece though... seems to be in good condition still. so i got it too! ^^ after that went look look see see in Mini Toons. and got myself a new hp pouch. :x

That shoulder bag. ^^

My cute cute hp pouch!! :x

spent quite alot... broke once again. x.x hmmm.. next on the "things to get" list would be tops, bottoms and shoes. :/ probably have to wait till next month? :/

watched "Ironman". hmm. i would say the show's not bad. i enjoyed it. :)

and i enjoyed my day.

i'm a happy girl! once again. :D

2008-04-29T23:59:00.003+08:00

blardy hell.

i'm not ok now.

it doesn't pays to be nice.

so why am i still trying my best to be nice to ppl.

getting scolded for nothing.

i must be some stupid dumb ass.

there's gotta be a stop to this.

there's a limit to everybody's level of tolerance.

now pls fuck off,

before i really blast.

i mean it.

2008-04-27T22:54:00.003+08:00

yipee~ enjoyed myself during the weekends. heh. :D

went out with frens on saturday.. sort of a mini outing la. hmm. went suntec watched "Harold and Kumar" and had dinner at carl's junior. the onion rings is ‹3s okays. love it to the max!! burger king cant compare at all! :x :D hmm. "Harold and Kumar" was like damn funny la. lmao-ed and nearly Rofl-ed several times thruout the show. haha. really is damn hilarious. worth a watch. :)) helps to destress i suppose. :x

heee. labour day this thur... hopefully i can get my long-awaited salary on wed. so i can go on a shopping spree on thursday! yay!! need to get a bag (ok. maybe 2? ;p), probably another pair of decent shoes? uhh.. more clothes? probably a pair of jeans and some tops... and the list just seems to go on and on... ~.~ oh yes. and i just feel like doing something to my hair la.. cut it, dye it, highlight it or even perm it! ha. shall see how much i'm left with after all the shopping 1st ba. :/ i really don't wish to finish spending the miserable amt of money within the 1st 1/3 of the month okays. :(

ohh. probably going escape theme park this sat with GF and her bf too. okays. this may sound malu.. but i've nv been to escape theme park before. yes i mean it. :/ owells. i've heard of how bad it is... and how i should not go and waste money.. but still i wan to go! :x heh. okays. i'm stubborn at times... just... some.. occasions. :x hmm. after that maybe going ktv at night. that one.. depends. heh. still pending for confirmation. ;p

and and and! my birthday is coming soon!!! presents please!! :x 20th may is the day! :D hmm ppl asked how i'm gonna celebrate. and honestly.. i have no idea. :/ haven really celebrated my birthday in years. :/ let's see. i've worked, rotted at home on my birthday before. so.. ya. really have no idea wat to do this yr. :/ that's so siansational. x.x

okays. laziness is acting up again.

-goodbyes!

2008-04-26T10:58:00.004+08:00

well well well. after much "serious" considerationsa and advice from ppl, i've decided that... i shall not take that job. 1stly, too lowly paid, 2ndly, it's rather shitified job, 3rdly must tahan at least 1yr if not need to pay agency fees!!! like wtftmdkns. :/ andandand, 1st 2 weeks need to go to that ulu place in bedok for training.. i can't imagine myself wearing that pair of killer heels walking thru area with uneven floor again la. like.. so inconvenient. x.x ok. call me picky or wat la, i know i dont have that good qualifications, might even be very the sucky... but but but i believe there are better jobs around. :/

okays. was working on thursday at bugis. lunch was... rather disastrous, kitchen jammed. food delayed. customers was not very the happy (but still alright la) oh. and i was doing cashiering on that day.. so was quite.. free. :D heh. :x then dinner was alright la. busy as usual. but still manageable. :)

Ystd(friday) was at central from 12-2.30. initially was suppose to be till 3.. but it was so not busy thus i knocked off 1/2 hr earlier. :D had staff meal there. heh. think i prefer central's staff meals. reason being, they allow you to take the rice and 'kiap" the chicken or pork or watsoever that the kitchen cook ourselves. heh. so can pick the bigger pieces!! ;p okays la. just joking. i'm not that auntie... yet okays. :x i only pick the better looking ones. :x

went to watch "Definitely Maybe" after work at the cathay. the show is damn nice <3s muchies. :D hmm. came home at abt 8+ after that. rotted infront of the com till abt... 12? then went to slp. heh.

oh ya. recently my leg there got some skin irritation.. think is.. something called eczema or somethign like taht. :/ damn itchy! x.x lucky it's not a big patch. :/ hopefully it's gonna recover on it's own. i'm just too lazy to go see a doctor la. waste of money as well. ~.~ i'm poor. :( still waiting for pay day on 30th apr. :/ 1 more week! yay!! :D

heh. going for this outing later. steamboat i think. hee. been long since i had steamboat outside. :) then.. maybe watch movie too? wat abt "Doomsday"..? heee hopefully! :D

2008-04-23T23:40:00.010+08:00

Woah. it's wednesday already. time passes so fast. x.x owells. was at central ma maison ystd. for lunch and dinner shift. it was so NOT busy at all. in fact it was so damn free that i can gei siao chit chat around la. :x definitely so unlike bugis la, whereby the crowd is so horrible. :/ heh. took some pictures at central. have to agree that there's a much better view at central than bugis. :/

Hmm. went work at bugis today from 1030 to 3. afterwhich, rushed down to bedok for some interview :/ owells. was offered the job. but told him i wan to consider 1st. :/ due to some reasons la. lazy to elaborate. :( anyways. wore heels... which nearly killed my feet and i. x.x it just hurt my feet so much to the extent that i feel like taking them off and walk bare-footed instead la! got blisters le. T.T

Hur. anyways. managed to "crawl" home at abt 7. bathe and went tpy meet GF and her bf. :/ felt so extra. DONT MUSHY MUSHY INFRONT OF ME HOR. i jealous-ed lor. :x heh went to that hp booth to return my previous hp box too. owe them for going to 1mth le. :x i'm like.. so trustworthy can.. :x anyways. camwhore-d with GF in "more than words". shall post some below. :p

hmm. looks sort of haggard without make-up ehh? :/

heh alrights. shall end off here tonight.

Goodbyes~ :D

2008-04-21T21:28:00.004+08:00

Hmm. ok.. it's monday again. i'm rotting at home. :/ woke at at 10+, came onlined. nth much to do. can't think of anything to blog abt also.

hungryy. so went to cook maggie. again. :/ tmd. i lost count of how many packs of maggie i ate for the past few weeks :/ anyways. since i have nth better to do. took pictures while i was preparing my maggie... below is "idiots' guide to cooking maggie" ;p

Ok. so first. open up the pack of maggie. take out the seasoning and all.

add in watever ingredients you wan. heh. i prepared an egg, crab sticks, sausages and prawns. :x

Add the ingredients into the boiling water 1st... then add in the noodles soon after.

As it's abt to be done, add in the egg.

Add in the seasoning after transfering all into the bowl and Ta-daaa~ here's the final jeannette production maggie mee. heh. ;p

Heh. alrights. i'm lame for posting this up. like. who doesn't know how to cook maggie. :/ well. slacked and watched some vids online till abt.. 2+, 3pm. then went to nap till abt 6. heh. :/

anyways. sent in resume for some jobs. hopefully can get some satisfactory replies and offers soon. and oh ya. i still can't leave ma maison yet. :( wil be working from tuesday to friday this week. at both central and bugis outlet T.T siansation. :/

and tmd. the weather is damn hot these days. i can't believe i'm actually tieing up my hair at home la. i usually only tie up my hair at work. :/ owells. the temperature is really unbearable. :/i'm melting. :(

perhaps i should go switch on the aircon in my room. like NOW. :/

-gones.

2008-04-20T10:27:00.006+08:00

ok ok. since GF ask me to link her BF. i shall do it. hur. be honoured okays. you both are the only 2 onmy fren links. :/ while i'm just 1 out of your many links. :( :x owells. i'm just to lazy to compile all links and type in the stupid html stuffs la. :x

hmm. let's see wat have i been doing. ermms. went movie with amb and frens ystd. watched forbidden kingdom. well. that show was o..k.. lor. abit lame la. x.x got wat monkey god, jade warlord, got 玉皇大帝 who speaks english, some supposedly immortals and an angmoh kiddo. like. so chapalang. Lol. anyways. i think i still prefer 3 kingdoms. :/

heh. prolly last day of work for me today. :D going for interview tmr. sighs. i wan to get a job. yet i dont wan to get a job. contradicting ehh. well. getting a full time job would mean... that i'll have lesser time of my own. and also more responsibilities? :/ well. time to grow up! x.x Hmm. Grad ceremony on the 23rd May, 10am(if i didn't rmb wrongly) anybody wanna come along? :p okays. JUST JOKING. haiya. it's like damn dumb la. we still have to pay for the grad gown man. tmd. think it's like 30bucks? =.=z and it's been worn by dunno how many 5435143254653 persons. :/ dont really feel like going la, my results sucks like TMD%#@!* . but still decided to go anyways. coz that's like.. wat i've been waiting for since 3 yrs ago? oh damn. time flies. :/

hmmm. anyways. i'm looking forward to outings. ktv pubs, ktv.. watsoever. GF! dont forget to jio me along if got lobang okays. :x

alrights. nth much to blog abt already.

goodbyes!

-gones.

2008-04-18T00:17:00.006+08:00

i simply can't stand those...

patheticchildishattentionseekingdumbshitsblardyfuckingbitches.

TMD.

i wonder wat's so nice abt putting ppl down.

does it make you feel more superior or anyway better than anyone?

the ans is NO.

you are just a small fry. that is so insignificant to the extent that you have to resort to such dumb tactics to gain the attention of others.

nevertheless, i ‹3 GF.

2008-04-16T23:28:00.001+08:00

heh. saw this on GF's blog. :x shall post mine here. ;p

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

2008-04-16T23:11:00.003+08:00

work work work. i'm tired. :(

woke up late this morning. suppose to get out of the hse at 9.30. for work at 1030. but i woke at 9.20 la. x.x rushed and bathe freaking fast and finally rushed onto the bus by 9.40. heng nv late. but skipped breakfast. was damn hungry la. T.T and and and. work was not very good today. sighss. got pissed off by some bitch auntie customers. dammit. shall not elaborate. makes my blood boil la. T.T damn rude. damn yaya papaya. damn %#$%. :/ TMD! :(

anyways. got work again tmr at 1030. initially 1130 de. but somehow. someone cant make it. so ya. i became the unlucky one. ~.~" siann. but nvm. 2 more days of tolerating all the nonsensical stuffs. it will all be fine. i hope. :/

sighhs. i'm getting emo for some reasons. been thinking abt stuffs. i wished sometimes i could just 看开一点. but owells. easier said than done. :/

我只想再开心一点点, 但为何快乐似乎离我好遥远.

2008-04-14T20:07:00.006+08:00

alrights. weekend's over. monday blues. :/

hmm. watched 2 movies over the weekends. 3 kingdom and Untraceable. 3 Kingdom was not bad. :D. Untraceable was.. well.. something like a budgetted version of Saw? but still ok overall. :/ anyways. i was so broke that i survived on treats :/ thanks the ‹3ly souls who treated me to the movies. :x

hur. things happened the other day that drove me to ~~tears~~ at work. shall not elaborate. let's just leave it as "an unpleasant day at work" :/ but wat happened that day, made me really 下定决心 to quit. once and for all. shall not drag on further.

hmm. this week's work schedule seems sort of busy. :/Reason being due to the fact that sch reopen for poly and ite students. :/ so that means... all back to sch! left with me, the supposedly very free person who has too much time to kill on hand. :/ workign from mon to thur, off (tentatively) on fri and sat, then work again on sunday. my last day(probably) on sunday (20th). coz i really wan to 放心 go get a decent full time job. :/probably going for job interviews from 21st onwards. hopefully with my lousy grades and my 半桶水 resume, some decent company will employ me. :x of course, with a decent salary too. T.T

alrights. kind of lazy to blog. shall end here. :/

goodbyes.

2008-04-11T10:11:00.003+08:00

sighs. i hate to work. but yet. when i'm having my off-day. i got nth to do, other than log onto my com and stare blankly whole day long, either that or i'll be thinking abt those ~~unhappy~~ stuffs. which makes me go emo and all. seriously no life. :/

the lies which i heard. the empty promises that were made. made me even more skeptical. i've lost the trust in everything. and i'm like.. so envious of the ppl around me. sighhs.

i hate being alone. :(

-gones.

2008-04-10T20:36:00.005+08:00

hur. alrights. ben working the past few days. tiring. and there had been loads of problems. i'm getting pissed with all that's happening at work. seriously. i'm gonna quit by the end of this month. just.. can't take it already. my tolerance is to the max. :/ and i really dont wan to flare up at ppl. x.x

hmm. took some pics with jack while waiting for staff meal after work that day. shall post them below. sicne we stay near each other, we cabbed home tgt after that. :x haaa. 10bucks gone. ~.~ well. i guess it's alright to indulge in such "luxury" once in a while. :x bus really sucks sometimes. :p

jack looks like he got blusher on!! MUAHAH :x

hur. my face looks damn rounded la. x.x

hmmm. off today and tmr. sian. like nth to do sia. x.x probably tmr meeting GF and her frens go that chinatown cheap cheap ktv ba. dunno. see how. broke like dunno wat la. ~.~ SIAN. but i wan to sing la! :( dilemma. :/

sighhs. been thinking abt alot of stuffs. and i still dunno wat i wan.

i feel so empty sometimes.

isn't it nice to have someone to depend on? someone who will be just there when i need someone? someone who'll listen to my problems and advice me on wat to do? someone who showers me with the attention i need.

but somehow. just when i thought that the person appeared. something just isn't right...? then the whole cycle repeats again. i start to drift. i begin to avoid. i guess i'm better off alone? sighhs. i don't know. maybe i'm just thinking too much ba.

-gones.

2008-04-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

i hate backstabbers.

i hate liars.

i hate boot-lickers.

i hate ppl who make empty promises.

i hate ppl who "eat" up their words.

damn. i hating more and more ppl. T.T

more and more shit stuffs happening.

i'm seriously hating all these.

:(

2008-04-07T01:04:00.003+08:00

I'M STRESSED OUT.

i'm feeling emo.

thoughts running through my mind.

& those tears just flowed unknowingly. once again.

2008-04-06T23:36:00.002+08:00

i hate it. :(

2008-04-05T10:10:00.002+08:00

dilemma.

i'm stuck.

i guess, perhaps i need more time.

to think.

to decide.

to be alone.

:(

2008-04-05T00:02:00.003+08:00

i wan to cry liao la!!! ~.~ went MJ at colleague's place.. together with his 2 other frens. 1st time playing with them. and i lose quite alot. sighhs. shall not elaborate on the figure. ~.~ but. seriously today no luck la. shall not go into details :/ hur. just treat it as 破财消灾 ba. x.x

hmm. did not get short listed for some the front desk CSO i applied for the other day. SAD! T.T hur. so probably will have to go on job search next week. i'm like left with 30bucks to "dong" till end of month. pathetic man!! seriously. this can't go on. I NEED A FULL TIME JOB!! :/

anyways. tmr meeting Mr CY. hohoho. see wat he's got for me from china. :D it better be something nice. :x

ohohoh! and i've been watching this taiwan drama "fated to love you" online. like. quite nice leh. :D out till episode 3 only ~.~ siann. dunno still must wait how long before next episode comes out. :( and i just simply refuse to waste the money to go buy the vcd la. coz i'll probably just watch it once only anyway. :/

heh. i'm feeling tired and restless already. x.x BYE!

-gones.

2008-04-02T14:55:00.010+08:00

alrights. it's wednesday today. i'm rotting at home once again. heh. and i'm waiting for someone to return from china... i wan my presents! :x

anyways. did nth much today. the usual stuffs. :/ felt hungry. initially wanted to go out buy... but.. sort of got lazy. so nvm. cooked maggie instead. heh. i found prawns and beef sausage in the freezer. :D added them into my kimchi flavoured maggie. ohh. cracked an egg in too. ^^ shall show the final production below. :x

see those beef sausages and prawns? :x i peeled the prawns myself okays. ;p

Here's a closer look. hahaah! it's absolutely yummy-licious!! :D

hmm. sent resume to apply for some front desk customer service job. sounds quite good. hopefully can get it... so my mum won't nag at me everyday. sighhs. she's been wanting me to get a full time job asap. :/ but... i really 舍不得 ma maison. sighhs. :(

siann.

-gones.

2008-04-02T00:42:00.004+08:00

damn. i dropped my phone today. :( lucky thing is that it's in my hp pouch.. which is not so bad. but still .. I DROPPED IT!! :( emo!! x.x hopefully i din spoil anything in it. hur. :/ heartpain la. :'(

i'm feeling rather slpy. probably coz i slept at 5am and woke at 8am. :/ thus, i shall be good, and sleep early tonight!!

goodnight and BYE!

-gones.

2008-04-01T02:21:00.001+08:00

SIGHS...

i know i'm suppose to be feeling better...

but

somehow,

somewhere,

sometimes,

for some reasons,

i'm not. :/

:'(

2008-03-30T21:13:00.004+08:00

whee~ finally gto a new hp! MUAHAHHA but a slight disappointment though.. initially wanted the k810i red edition... but i end up with the ivory gold edition instead (it's the CJ7 special edition) . hee. then inside got that cute cute CJ7 thing game. :D hmmm. borrowed the money from GF 1st. think as soon as i get my pay, i'll be broke again. x.x owe so many ppl money. x.x sighhs.

anyways. we stayed on at tpy till late late la.. "terrorising" most of the dealers there. :x the red k810i so hard to find la... and it's especially harder when both GF and i wanted the same hp! :/ so.. end up.. "no fish, prawns also can" la. :/ and yes. we got "couple" phone. :p hehees. :D Lovess~ waited for GF to finish her manicure after getting our hp. and we din realised it was already like 9.45pm! (we were suppose to be at the ktv at 10pm) =.=

went down to chinatown ktv anyways. GF's frens were LATE. :/ anyways, sang quite alot i would say... but my throat wasn't in best condition though. :( was experiencing extreme hunger after that, so went downstairs for the frog porridge.. initially tot they have that gong bao tian ji like the geylang lor 9 one... but sadly. no. :/ reached home at abt 4am, slept at 5+am tired.. x.x

then this morning kena woke up at abt 10+.. uncle's daughter full month. heh. went jumbo seafood at sgoon country club. it was suppose to begin at 12pm.. but apparently.. latecoming has became a BAD habit for most ppl i presume.. they all start to arrive only like abt 1pm? and some even later! like.. how inconsiderate... was like damn hungryy la. x.x

anyways. after that came home. nap till 6+.. and nua-ed on my precious bed till 8+ and now here i am. rotting infront of my com... bored. x.x

tadaaa~ end of post.

-gones

2008-03-28T23:28:00.004+08:00

well well well. definitely feeling much better after spending more than 1/2 the day at home.. and meeting with my dearest germs a.k.a my GF :x heh. and thanks to those who'd tried to cheer me up on msn... acting stupid and all. :p thanks. :)

hmm. went tamp with GF... ate a proper meal.. then went shop shop abit at isetan. guess wallets certainly looks tempting... but mine's still in good condition.. so.. no excuse to get new one. lols. haa. after that, went to enquire abt hp prices from the dealers around the area( ok. only 1 to be exact coz the rest closed. :/) hmm really tempted to get k810i red edition. heee. think after trade in and all.. still have to pay like 200+++ to in order to get it. x.x siann. hopefully this mth's pay is of a satisfactory amt. :x 31st payday!! woots! oh yea. and to ben: i still owe you your movie and breakfast. (since you always say i din mention you in my blog, i shall mention now) :x

then tmr should be meeting GF after her work... to go check out the hp prices at other areas. heh. k810i red!! here i come!! :D lovess. :D then after that.. maybe go ktv session at chinatown? hee. not sure. depends la. :/

hur. been slping late these days.. just.. dont have the mood to slp... i'd love to hang out late late.. rather than stay home facing the computer with a stupid $#!#%$ singnet connection that lags all of a sudden, affecting my mood and all. hmm. so whoever has any plans/outings etc pls let me tag along k o.o ... hmmm loves KTV pubs recently. haaa. :x

anyway. shall end here for the moment.

-gones.

2008-03-28T13:02:00.002+08:00

我一直都在强颜欢笑，因为没人会了解我心中在淌血的滋味。

2008-03-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

it's just so ironic. how i wish i have someone with me... loving, pampering me, having mutual trust and all. but yet.. i just find it so difficult to really really trust someone. perhaps to the extent that i've been pushing away those whom i should trust ? well. i dunno. i get emo at times thinking abt all this shits. but then again. i only have myself to blame... am i not right. :/

that confident that i used to have.. has gone MIA. :( the confident in myself.. and in others. :/

i just want to be more independent.

i just want to be more decisive.

i just want to be able to control my emotions and feelings better.

i just want my life to be better.

i just want to be myself. but yet many a times, i'm just too easily affected by others.

damn. this sucks. :(

i just want to be alone sometimes... but then again. i'm afraid of that loneliness. :( crap. how contradicting i am.

RAHHH! dunno wat i'm talking abt. bullshits. :/

BYE!

2008-03-23T22:21:00.003+08:00

work work work. :/ hur.

and damn. hp went sot just now. and when it finally return to normal... MY T9 DICTIONARY function is nowheer to be found. like. MIA. :( like wtf lo. x.x now i'm like so not use to msging la. (*cries) :(

seriously need to get new hp liao la. x.x

EMO LIAO.

gones-

2008-03-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

hmmm. let's see. work was ok today... just that the atmosphere was rather tense during dinner time.. some conflicts between the kitchen side and outside colleague. very fierce sia.. made me 退避三舍. :/ scary. :/ think i will really cry if i were to kena scolding in the manner man. x.x will be working from 3 till abt 10 tmr.. then 6 to abt 10 for sunday. hur. busy busy. bo bian la. need to earn more. :/

ohh. and and and. i cut my fringe by myself today. hahaha. still alright la. 1st time cutting my own hair. :x seriously cant stand it la. like so long, so irritating... kind of block my views la. :/ heh. feel like perming my hair lehh. those wavy wavy kind. heee. but have to keep my hair long long 1st.. coz it's like so super layered now. think i'll seriously look like an auntie if i were to perm it now. :s

hur. initially wanted to go out today de.. but like no lobang. :( siann

anyway. shall end the blog here ba. bored. :(

2008-03-20T12:17:00.004+08:00

Haa. had and is still having stomachache since ystd night till now. :( LS-ed few times and it's still the same. x.x well.. don't care la. had my B&J ice cream already. :D YUM YUM!! ur. got work tonight. so hopefully will recover before work. :/

heh. got nth much to do. so went to do some blogthings. shall show some below. :/

You Are a Banana

You are mellow, easy going, and a total softie on the inside.

People find it really easy to get along with you. You suit most tastes.

And while you're very sweet, you're not boring or ordinary.

You have an attraction to the exotic, and you could show up anywhere... doing almost anything!

You are spirited, energetic, and a total kick to be around.

You're also quite funny. Your sense of humor is on the goofy side, and it fits you well.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen

Peacemaker, first to end a fight

Good at thinking up creative dates

Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily

Going with your gut instead of your head

Empathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault

Good at recognizing patterns in relationships

Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count

Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love

Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow

Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind

Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You a Right Brained or Left Brained Woman in Love?

2008-03-20T00:51:00.004+08:00

hmmm. back from bbq. it was ok la. just the rain kind of dampened my mood earlier on. :( haa. funny la. half way thru the bbq, they realised not enough food and drinks.. probably coz we ate too much too fast? :x then few of us went "shopping" for more at the nearby ntuc, went to da bao some rice from the hawker as well. :/ then think end up... there's like too much food. ~.~ not sure if the rest managed to finish all though, as i left earlier.

came home. stomachache. :( LS-ed. :/think must be the food not clean.. either that or not cooked well enough. x.x it seems that this always happen to me whenever i go for bbqs or steamboat.. always will kena diahorrea de. x.x

ohh. bought a tub of B*J ice cream while on the way home. chunky monkey~ my favourite!! :D yum yum. it's just so damn nice la!!! but i'll feel so damn sinful after eating it... but... dun care la.. eat 1st then say. :x

damn. my stomach is acheing again. :( i hate this. :'(

2008-03-19T12:20:00.003+08:00

sighhs. got results liao. pass all. but as usual, the results suck like #!$# :/ well... but at the very least, i passed ok... (self console) :x hmmm. class bbq later. abit sian. hopefully the weather is good. :)

hmmm. emo ystd. met up with germs... hang around till 4+ then reach home. :/ sighhs. i'm stuck in a dilemma once again. :( shall not elaborate more. :/ 是烦的咯... :(

hmmm. thinking if i should go find a full time perm job... or go into some U(maybe sim?) sighhs. idkidk. sicked and tired of studying. :( but then again. i scared i'll regret in future. sighhs. how how how?! :(

arrgh. everything isn't going smoothly. WHY?! :'(

2008-03-18T10:15:00.003+08:00

Hmmm. nth much to do these few days... so have been blog hopping. haaa. :/ saw something so touching... shall type it out below...

Girl: Do i ever cross your mind?
Boy: No.

Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really.

Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No.

Girl: Would you cry if i left?
Boy: No.

Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No.

Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No.

Girl: Choose--> me or your life
Boy: My life.

the girl runs away in shock and pain then the boy runs after her and says...

The reason why you never cross my mind is because you are always on my mind.

The reason why i don't like you is because i love you.

The reason i don't want you is because i need you.

The reason why i wouldn't cry if you left is because i'd die if you left.

The reason why i wouldn't live for is is because i'll die for you.

The reason why i wouldn't do anything for you is because i'll do everything for you.

The reason i choose my life is because you ARE my life.

hur~ that's like so touching la. well. i suppose it's really very difficult to find a guy who'll say such things in real life. but seriously... hearing all these words will definitely melt the gal's heart la... like... so 感动~, but owells, the guy better mean it though, coz i realise alot of ppl don't usually do wat they say... they just say for the sake of saying. =.=\ irritating. :/

hmmm. anyways. might be going for some k session tonight. will see how. :D hopefully it's not cancelled last min. :/ in the meantime... i'm gonna like.. take a nap or something 1st.. slept at abt 4+ and woke at 9. =.=zZ (no thanks to my dear mom). really tired la. and when i'm tired... i get mood swings.. easily get pised off/irritated etc, which is really not good.. coz i seriously don't like to flare up at ppl uneccesarily. :x hurmms. x.x

BYEBYE!

2008-03-17T10:25:00.001+08:00

sighhs. getting results on the 19th. x.x looking forward to it... yet i'm feeling nervous too. hur. :/ been getting emo nowadays. dunno why. perhaps due to r/s related stuffs ba. sort of lost trust in all ppl? seriously. it's hard for me to trust anyone anymore. perhaps another reason was what someone once said of me.. perhaps i'm just too selfish... perhaps i was really too self centered.. i'm just not good enough..... yet. :/ sighhs. i'm just so easily affected by the words ppl say. guess that's certainly not a good thing. :(

like the other day, my mom just suddenly say to me, "why you seem so unhappy". i was like thinking how she know man. coz i've always been keeping to myself.. hardly shared any of my problems with anyone at home, be it at sch, work, or personal problems. so was kind of shock that she can see that i'm not happy... :/ was it really that obvious? x.x

hmmm. will be working for 4 days next week. from thur onwards... which means... i'll be stuck in ma maison for the long weekend.. which might be a good thing.. coz working sort of prevents me from saying uneccesary goodbyes to $$.. :x instead i can say hellos to more. ;p Working is tiring yes.. but then.. it really does help me forget abt all those #$%@ stuffs too.. since it's 一举两得 so 何乐而不为. :D hmmm. wondering when i'll get a pay rise again. ;p worked for 3 yrs there already.. yet raise only twice. :( seriously is so much slower than other places. yet i sort of like.. can't bear to leave. sighhs. :(

2008-03-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

wheee~ Happy Birthday to Siewx a.k.a Germaine a.k.a germs. haaa sorry ah gal. owe your your bday present first. :x and you better make up your mind as to what you want 1st. :/

Hmm. met up with germs after her work ystd, then went over my work place to eat. hahahaa. like damn crowded la. but bo bian, weekend ma, somemore i never make any reservations, so we have to settle for the "unpopular" counter seats to skip the long queue. :/

then abt 10+, 11 like that went st james mono for germs' bday celebration. felt a lil out of place though.. reason being coz i hardly know anyone over there. :/ hur. :/ and as the rest surprised germs with a bday cake, i was put in a spot, by being asked to make a speech, in celebration of her bday. like OMG can. x.x cant think of wat to say la. :( no chance to prepare at all. hur. :x anyway. the cake was not bad though. :) heee. sang quite a number of songs too. yipeee~! took few pictures too... we both look kind of unglam though. :/ ohh. and some say we both look alike... do we..? hmmm.... :p

after that, cabbed home with germs and another of her fren at abt 5++ reached home at 6 someting, onlined alilttle then went to slp... all the way till 6+pm. considering the fact that i din even slp the previous friday night, due to overnight mj session, it's really considered very little slp ok. :( ohh. and i lost in mj-ing. :(

damn. i realised i'm like super broke liao. hur. :( why always money no enough. :(( sighhs.

i want to find a full time job!!! :/

anyways. below are the pictures we took... view at your own risk!!! :x

That's abt all i have.. there's still some over at her fren's hp though. and i thought those were nicer than these above. haaaa. as usual. pics are deceiving. :p

hmmm. shall end off here today. feeling lazy. and bored. :/ HUR! :(

2008-03-11T00:51:00.003+08:00

alrights. new blog skin. new phase of life. without all the unhappiness hopefully.

hmm. will be getting results on the 19th march. hopefully. i wont fail... probably won't la. x.x just hope i dun do too badly. then i'll need to go search for a job. sighhs. working life. :( OLD LIAO~ x.x

i'm feeling damn lazy. :/ i wan to stay home and just be a 米虫... haha. DREAM ON MAN! that's so impossible. i just hope to be able to find a suitable job. a good one. haaa. hopefully some smart company wants me. :x

haaa. i'm like so free nowadays. not really used to it sia. x.x HAHAHAH

anyways. shall enjoy while i still can. :))

lazy to blog liao BYEBYE!

2008-03-07T01:40:00.004+08:00

my sympathy towards you. how pathetic you are, saying all these stuffs that made yourself seem like the oh-so-innocent party. Trying to gain sympathy from the ppl ehh? well. how nice. hope that there's gals dumb enough to fall for this old damn trick which i fell into. and seriously. come to think of it. how dumb have i been.

Those words you said. those stuffs i saw. made me hate you more.

THANKS! for helping me walk out of this shitified crap!

i'm so totally over you now. how glad i am.

and now. i got those stamps off my eyes.

:D

there's certainly better ones out there. and i've probably met at least one already.